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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni am listing more item on ebay to sell take forever meanwhile coleman is watching the hill season premier without me\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nin the past year i got raped by a friend i trusted deeply i lost my job to covid my grandmother who i loved more than anyone passed my best friend completely ghosted me found out i have a chronic disease i can never have my own biological child i thought a these thing were happening that i would eventually be able to move past them that maybe they weren t such big deal and i really wa being too sensitive like my parent love to tell me i m an adult and i most definitely can t afford to move out i can barely afford to pay the 00 a month rent my parent charge me i live in the same room i ve lived in since i wa born i just pay for it now with money i wa saving for a car so i don t have a car i don t have my license cause my parent won t let me drive their car so i ve never practiced i don t have a single friend i had two but if you read the beginning yea i ve been homeschooled since the start of high school so i don t have anyone to fall back on except for family my grandmother wa the only one who really sympathized with me and i spent the past two year taking care of her pretty much full time she wa 9 and mentally and physically declining it killed me to watch the woman who raised me wither away i felt like i lost my only purpose when she passed away and i constantly blame myself for not being there when she died she had a heart attack and the coroner told me i couldn t have helped even if i wa right beside her but i m eaten alive with guilt i m still grieving but i need money to live i interviewed and got a job at a place i wanted to work i wa dreading it though because i knew my only way to get there is my parent my dad begrudgingly take me even though i don t know how he expects me to pay his rent if i can t have a job he constantly complains about having to take me there and back which is at the most minute of driving yet he won t aid me in getting a license and is draining my saving from my old job by charging me rent and now my current job is slashing my hour i went from 0 hour a week to what the fuck and they now expect me to do double the work on a single shift for 9 an hour i thought thing were looking up when i first got that job but now it s just shit i m not making any money or progress in life i m dependent on my family and im sick and tired of it i don t feel like an adult at all and frankly i don t want to be why would i want to live the next sixty year to pay tax work and be miserable there s nothing worth pursuing at the cost of prolonging a life of suffering i m traumatized from being raped i ve never told anyone irl and i think i m asexual because of it now thinking about anything intimate make me physically sick i never want to be in a relationship what s the point if i can t have kid anyways nobody would want me all i really want is a friend or two people to talk with and share hobby but i can t drive myself anywhere so i m kinda unable to even attempt to make connection with people and i ve noticed pretty much everyone my age is only interested in hook ups or relationship my old best friend of year completely ghosted me after she got a boyfriend i wanted to know what it wa like to have a boyfriend and my first kiss but it wa forcefully stolen from me i wanted to master an instrument and another language i wanted to keep seeing cool new game and anime come out i wanted to try food from around the world i wanted to see the northern light dance i wanted to see sakura season i wanted to see crystal clear ocean water i wanted to spread my wing and be able to just live normally but it just wasn t meant to be for me well i accidentally turned this into a long rant but basically i m giving up i see no point in living tomorrow will be my last day i made plan with my older sister to go to a movie and dinner so it ll be a good day at least i wa gon na shoot myself but i figured an overdose will be le painful for my parent to come across i m not sure exactly what i believe in but maybe life will be better next time my heart hurt for anyone feeling the same way i do it s hard thank you for reading\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwatching old video of dance team and such make me miss it\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ntitle say it all really bit of context i ve been depressed for the better part of year it started late into high school i ve been referred to multiple mental health service none of which have helped i wa first referred to cahms when i wa i stopped going to these session due to me not being able to open up i wa then referred to samh about a year later this wa also no help finally i wa referred to the community mental health team lanarkshire these session were in person where i spoke to a qualified mental health nurse i honestly have no fucking clue how this guy got his job he wa totally unprofessional had this patronising attitude the entire time wa rude and condescending at point and even laughed at me when i said i felt mediocre the one silver lining here wa that he had the ability to refer me onto a psychotherapist which he said that i wa on a month waiting list for i didn t continue going to these session however i assumed i d still be on the waiting list i remember my final session with him i told him i wa suicidal again cut to about month later i phone them back up to check the progress on the waiting list and when i d be seeing a psychotherapist i wa told by a receptionist that i m not on any waiting list this wa very distressing to me because it felt like i had been waiting all this time for nothing it turn out that they discharged me because i didn t continue going to the session i m at my wit end here i keep trying to get help but the nh is just straight up incompetent i wrote a letter to my gp explaining the situation and i got a phone call basically telling me there s nothing they can do and that i have to phone the community mental health team to see if i can get back on the waiting list i m so annoyed all this time spent waiting to finally get some proper help and this happens i don t know what to do please if there s anyone out there who s been through a similar experience tell me what to do\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m an adult but i want to escape my family completely i don t know where to start i ve told my therapist that i hate my family and stuff he replied with well they are really wealthy maybe you should continue being provided since you have your need to be met with i highly believe he s saying because of my mental issue i m diagnosed with ptsd ed psychosis mdd major clinical depressive disorder satiety etc but i don t think it s that serious because i can stabilize myself i have okay coping mechanism it feel like my therapist doesn t think i can stand on my foot by myself without my family i live with my family but i bought a house with their money and my money from work yes i did tell my family i wanted to leave but they said okay but first give u our 00 thousand back they helped me buy a house and now because of a fight they want me to stay home and own up to my mistake ridiculous thing is that they offered to pay and said i didn t need to pay them back now they re blackmailing me i told them i would because i have good bank i m a banker for a reason they then said something like you have no right to be saying that a banker is nothing respected blah blah blah they went on about how i should ve continued the line in our family of becoming engineer or surgeon the hardest part isn t even dealing their expectation of me it s the fact some of my family member especially my older brother and mom are narcissist some of you are probably thinking well why don t you just move into your home and ignore them if i move into my home they said they will have the higher ups of my job fire me i don t know what my parent want from me i m just stressed and going crazy because of their existence i know i can legally cut my parent off but don t know where to start do i have to make a call first anyone have info i d greatly appreciate it i ve dealt with my parent from teen year to now but i ve had enough of it i thought i d be free from their grasp once i become an adult but i m still stuck and i hate myself for having mental issue it s bothersome\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nim not sure if this is the right thread to put this under idk if this is considered anxiety or irrational fear ocd or the warning sign of psychosis evolving the other day i saw a spider in my room keep in mind i saw a jumping spider in my room a while ago and i didnt sleep in my room for a whole month maybe even longer a couple day ago i saw another but this time im 90 sure it wa a northern black widow i saw the back of it and it wa black with white spot on it and a huge as it wa all crumpled up so i poked it with a pencil it wa in fact alive it stood up abruptly i screamed and ran to my brother to kill it he picked it up with a napkin and flushed it i wa too frantic to tell him not to flush it so we could figure out what it wa well i wa curious a to what kind of spider it could be so i searched black spider with white spot it didnt look like the writing spider or anything else i came across a match but my excitement of finding a match quickly faded a i read the name of the spider i lost it i went to my mom room cry and she refused to listen to me so i called my dad they all told me it wa nothing and it probably just came in on my dog i calmed down but it didnt help much when i sleep on the couch i vigorously shake off my blanket from my room so i can make sure there no spider on it it become a part of my routine to also shake off my pillow and take them out of the case but tonight while i wa shaking them off something occurred to me what if there wa spider in my pillow now i cant use my pillow because all i can think about is spider being in it i also heard a story about a guy that woke up covered in them because there wa a nest in his pillow and a bunch of spider hatched im terrified i cant sleep without a pillow and my first day back to school is tomorrow and it super late i dont know what to do i cant sleep and this is greatly exhausting me i couldnt even use my favorite blanket since it grey and if one of the spider is on there i wouldn t be able to see it what should i do to make my life normal again how do i overcome this please help\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni feel like my whole life wa a joke i have problem with concentration due to depression and my mom start rumor that i am dumb cause i watch porn\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhuntermoore i don t want him to ever punch me\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nalso the anxiety and post groove depression yho ha a sana\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nis ready to go to bed long day tomorrow\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni really struggle with depression and increadibly miserable thought about myself and what i do i also struggle with realising what i like or enjoy doing wearing watching etc in a few word i struggle with knowing my interest i feel no emotion for life at all i just see myself doing everyday stuff i need to survive a a human being do you have any suggestion on how i can help myself on speaking much better about myself and what i like sth to enjoy and be interested in like should i tell myself repetitively for instance i enjoy dancing rather than i just do it because i have to because some people say i do it beautifully but i m not sure about it or i don t feel good about it should i write down everyday sth like for instance i write well i read well i like writing i enjoy writing instead of i just write beacuse is needed at work because i have to people use to say i speak well in front of people but i just do it i don t feel anything it s known that depression steal u the joy of life and everyday existance it steal our curiosity in everything i leave everything because i feel no interest on it i just want to feel engaged in sth i m exhausted of not feeling anything good but i have no money for therapy atm can you help me thanks is advance\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni hope everyone ha a wonderful life you all deserve good thing i m too tired\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmccainblogette awwwww and you were trying to go to sleep hour ago\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nno that s not him in the picture i don t have any pic yet\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ve always joked about depression but lately i ve found myself facing overwhelming feeling of a sadness that can t be described in word i pray i have it in me to face this and not get consumed by it\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ve been accused of being a biscuit fascist because i said viennese biscuit weren t working class\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ngon na sound stupid a this happens to everyone but my daughter brought from daycare a nasty stomach bug i ve been puking my gut out and sitting on the toilet most of the day i m so tired but i can t sleep cause of the symptom i rapidly become so distressed my brain start to spin out of control and i want to end it all i m not capable to do it to be honest but man it is distressing i know after some sleep i ll be good but the current moment are atrocious i just can t focus on something else or clear my mind i should say i combine that to ongoing struggle with operational anxiety from the military every little thing push me to the edge\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhypothetically if someone took 9 000mg fluvoxamine mg naltrexone and 0mg lorazepam what would happen all hypothetically of course\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ve been in therapy nearly all my life and have gotten very good at using coping skill that help with the cognitive piece of my anxiety i e responding to my thought distraction etc the part that i still have a lot of difficulty with are the physical symptom i e chest tightness deep breathing doesn t really work well for me any suggestion that you all have for dealing with these symptom\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndammit i need to stop buying furniture\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndr black yes i wa invited but will be in san francisco very sorry to miss it\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsonnyjoeflangan goddammit i missed it what song xx\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni just want to be left alone i wish people would stop reaching out i just need alone time to heal i don t share that i have depression with my family or friend so that make it weirder they probably think i m rude but regardless i wish i would be left alone\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nit s a nice day for once and chibi and i are stuck at home waiting for a parcel\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso i m om an anti depressant and i feel it work somewhat i ve tried many others that just don t i ll be ok for a while just ok not cured or anything then ill hit these pit where i can t find joy in anything not even doing stuff with my kid like i just wan na lay in bed all day type of depression and idk what to do i do struggle with substance abuse and i know that s a big part in it i just didn t wan na get too into detail about it here i m so stuck i feel like i m in a funk and just wan na get out i ve struggled with substance abuse for a few year now which ha just worsened my depression honestly\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nno snoo snoo for you\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsucked in heather sewage bath xp and poor owen in the bear total drama island\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nquandotcom i miss mine too\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nis happy because i annihilated a baby huntsman in my kitchen with the cooking pan however this mean a mama one may be in hiding fuck\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ncharliecondou skinmusic more like\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfriend tried to send enough for a hotel but then my dog needed attention and then i sold my ring and i found out it wa pretty much fake and worth basically nothing enough tk get a hotel i thought so i did it it wasn t now i m probably going to wind up spiraling and i just want to be home in missouri never thought i d say that very thankful to the stranger who got my ticket can t wait until i can get on it please think good thought for my safety tonight it seems safe enough but the night is the worst for both me and my dog wish a shelter would allow her edit if anyone can help please pm me\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m just so done of all this constant same thing everyday feeling like i m not even mentally conscious the whole time who even am i where did everybody i used to know go do they go through this to or am i just some sick i don t know if i can even talk to people about this derealization zoning out feeling i just don t even know anymore it s gotten to the point where i forget simple memory because i just don t feel like they happened so it doesn t matter i had an old friend of mine fuck you to hell cameron i hope you die they started to tell me that i wasn t a real person and that the people of the other land or some shit where waiting for u ever since i haven t been the same fuck you fuck you fuck you cameron you fuckingruined me you controlling manipulative narcissistic piece of living shit you shouldve died when you had the chance ypu ruined me why did any of this have to happen why did my parent divorce why i hate it why can t i just go back to when i wa ok and happy for once why did it all have to change why can t i just be pretty and amazing why can t i just live my life without feeling like this i can t even go a week ithout attempting to stab myself and just ending up with a stinging chest god this hurt just end it all i m so tired of living like this i m gon na make the choice soon at my dad i m not even sure if i want to yet i believe in god heavily but i don t even know if he can forgive me for this the way i m planning on doing it isn t gon na be pretty and i don t wan na traumatize my little brother he should have to see his sister like that not even in highschool dead i want to make the decision to just fucking do it already i have nothing to turn back to my home life is a mess after my parent divorce and i m constantly going back and force between parent it would eventually get exhausting don t you think im probably not gon na end up doing it anyways i really needed to let this out because god i m just so tired of everything\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmy anxiety come with irritability avoidance of others impatience low frustration tolerance sleep issue restlessness and all sort of strange worry but the thing that really annoys the fuck out of me is the constant tight feeling in my head neck and chest anyone else feel this way\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwaking up to the sound of jackhammer is not a pleasant way to start the day\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nnothing much not well in bed all day\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nbajabitchin after a week long depression i finally managed to do some work on stuff i m behind on\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ntoday ha just been so shitty it s so busy at the store i work at and i just constantly feel like i can t breath today i m also so paranoid because i ve been texting my family literally all day and nobody s gotten back to me so i m stupidly paranoid about something bad happening to them\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\njust threw up all over the bathroom not fun\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhaving a coffee and going through my twitter facebook and other social network it seems to become a full time job to keep up\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nha the biggest headache but a second job woo\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nbeen sat for minute listening to breathing apps and doing dare mediation it really exhausting\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfairy0 omg wtf sure he talk now i m at school i don t have a phone\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndepression arai\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsearching for a job in berlin in summer time don t speak german\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsad that the time shift mean it s dark when we go home\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ntheekween it help those that suffer from depression and anxiety thelmasherbs\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmizzzidc the way people throw the word depression and mental health at every slight provocation these day is just alarming\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nive been awake for so long it feel about pm meh\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwarlach curse ye have fun at it i miss doing online pr for paramount pic\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni have to fill two hour\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nscoutbuck ton no hay troll ahhhh\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmorning all starving and dying for a cuppa but can t co off to doc for fasting blood test in a little while\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwent to the dentist today totally a a last resort totally broke now too god damn the dental industry need competition policy\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nlifee get worsee amp amp worsee\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmoony 9 omg i can t believe this i want to cry freaking fb spoiled me how could this happen\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ncan t sleep i don t like sonny being gone\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ngah comcast doubled our cable internet bill w out telling u so we are quitting can anyone suggest an affordable company in bay area\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmy doctor said they d like to talk about my bloodwork so i have an appointment tomorrow of course this wa this morning and now my brain is gone to over drive i spent all day sleeping with no motivation to eat drink get up i managed to get a bath but i also have a test tomorrow that i need studying for that call could just be anything but i m worried it s something absolutely terrible anyone else feel like this any advice\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmrrholmes photography film photography movie depression abel good taste just being chill\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhey tbh i don t know who to ask i tried unalive myself by hanging un fortunately they rescued me i don t have any medical complication but i have something i can describe a bloody eye like the part of my eye that supposed to be white are partially cover with blood i m wondering doe anyone had something like that i love my half dead look but i m curious when my eye will get back to normal\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nomy jus woke up but wa wishing i woke up sumwer in ny lol\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ntoday i wa prescribed xanax and celexa for my depression and anxiety i have major anxiety about taking pill the side effect freak me out especially when it come to mental medication i ve took zoloft in the pas for a couple day and it freak me out with suicidal thought very angry and ticked off i m scared this might happen again i m so lost on what to do i really need the help but scared of the help\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nlt algonquin agreed i saw the failwhale allllll day today\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsomeone pls tell me how to get over this i m currently nearly so i ve known this guy for year met him early 0 9 i know this sound stupid af but i met him online on minecraft when i wa nearly so i wa and at that time my sister had attempted suicide multiple time i had no friend at school and didn t go outside for week it wa school summer holiday i spent all my time playing minecraft with him on call and would message him all night when i wasn t playing the game he s also american and i m british went back to school and had like friend and carried on talking to him he started to like me and told me that but i literally did not like him at all and wanted to just be friend a i thought dating online wa weird anyway we ended up stopping talking a i moved on with my life made more friend at school and started being a normal teen with a normal life boy etc probably around early 0 0 i started talking to him again a i messaged him on instagram we spoke for a day then wouldn t talk for or so and this went on for a few month then we stopped talking completely novemeber 0 0 i dropped out on school in year 0 due to mental health issue and wa really at my lowest point i started talking to him again btw i barely remember anything from 0 0 bc i think my mental health just f cked up my brain we spoke for hour every night and day i m just adding that he s hispanic he skate his voice is so nice and he s literally my entire type anyway we talked and talked and we both fell in love he made me feel like a person he made me feel like everything i felt like nothing for so long and like i didn t belong and nothing made me happy and he just fixed everything me being me i would cause argument with him when he didn t reply within like 0 minute which ik wa so wrong of me to do i ruined everything by just keep going on at him for being dry etc because i wa so scared he would fall out of love with me he started being distant with me and talking to me le and not being like he used to be it really upset me what i mean by that is i would not eat i would not sleep i would stalk everything he wa doing i ended up getting blocked by him on absolutely everything even spotify it ruined me i made new account to get unblocked and the whole talking for age him being dry getting blocked repeated about time up until now he doesn t love me anymore he told me he wa all i ever wanted in a person last time i wa blocked it wa for about month life wa pointless without him he s just some guy online who could be doing whatever and i wouldn t know because i live thousand of mile from him but i love him i don t know why but i have this obsession with him i don t even think it s love anymore he is on my mind with no exaggeration everytime someone mention his name i smile and get butterfly i don t want to be here anymore if he isn t in my life his mood affect my mood i m currently still talking to him but he s dry which make me feel so depressed sometimes i think he ha a love spell on me or some shit he changed he used to be so nice and innocent then he went to high school and smoke weed and talk differently and treat me like i m just there like i m not a person anyway when i m talking to him and he s dry i don t want to talk to him anymore when i don t talk to him i want to literally die it s a cycle i m never going to get out of please don t tell me to meet someone new because i ve already tried that i started meeting guy to try and get over him but he s always in my head with everything i do he s already in my mind and i can never let him go he doesn t care if i don t talk to him anymore he s only staying because he probably feel like he ha to no one else can compare to him i don t know why i m like this and i hate myself for it i hate myself and he s the only one to make it okay pls help i know i m young but it s messing with my head\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nladyldn i hope you feel better soon being ill is no fun at all\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfuck everything i m done\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nguh the anatomy on this is horrible but this wa mostly drawn to help me get through some heavy depression so forgive that\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\npeople who have had this and she say they have all been the same it s vicious\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni guess i m on here to get some thing off my chest maybe even get some advice i really just want someone to relate to what i m going through if you took the the time to read this thank you a little background i m 0 australian cisgender male i ve lived in the foster care system which come with a lot of different issue i couldn t possibly get into i work for the government i can t say what i do here i do some dangerous work that led to being assaulted in early january i ve since been on work cover for my mental health acute stress disorder every day get harder i wake up and i can t get out of bed i sleep horrible hour i smoke almost a pack a day and i play video game non stop i feel like an exposed nerve some day every interaction with another human make me nervous and the day i leave the house are becoming fewer when i moved to my current town i didn t really have friend i ve always struggled with social interaction i joined a dnd group at a local hobby store in the hope of making some friend they were all relatively younger than me all in their 0 i gave it a go nonetheless several session in they ve asked me not to come back i didn t see it coming tbh it disappoints me because the reason why wa unclear i had thought we were friend dnd wa the general highlight of my week it s not exactly a productive past time and most people probably think it s stupid or nerdy tbh it absolutely is but i felt accepted and it wa a group who s social behaviour didn t revolve around drug and alcohol i m trying so hard not to internalise it and just accept that maybe i just didn t mesh with the group in addition to this my problem are piling up my car is completely useless my back is causing issue and i m gaining so much weight right now everything feel exhausting my lifestyle is so toxic right now and i know something need to change i just don t know what to do i feel so overwhelmed with life the best advice i can find is to grow up take responsibility for my life but it rarely seems that simple i feel like i have nothing left\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ll go first i got rejected recently it happens a lot to me it s my th time now i can t stop being anxious abt it it sickens me thinking abt it and idek why i m still anxious abt it i also have bipolar disorder so that make thing even better\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso i have been on fluoxetine prozac for 0mg and it seems to make my anxiety worse 0 0mins after i take them i have been on prozac for roughly around week is this normal\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nprincessbuddha im having the same problem i never drive anymore\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m terrified i ve given it to her and i m also terrified about being stuck in isolation in my room my anxiety is through the roof i stupidly started reading about all the horrible symptom of covid and it s making me feel so freaked out i really don t know what to do i feel like my anxiety is going to get so much worse being stuck in my room\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nthat wa it folk spring s gone and winter is back it s snowing outside\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwhen i got my diagnosis of generalized anxiety disorder i wa very optimistic and relieved i had been living with this condition for many year completely unaware the diagnosis wa a spark of hope perhaps one day i d be able to recover with the proper combination of therapy and medication year later now i must admit i feel exhausted with life it s really depressing to live with the knowledge that i have to be constantly alert to my condition or it will spiral and get worse yes treatment can help but needing to continually use cbt meditation grounding technique etc just to do the thing normal people do without difficulty is infuriating i feel like this isn t nearly talked about enough in mental health circle anxiety and depression are portrayed often a condition which can be fixed with the right cocktail and not also sometimes a life long condition which can exhaust not only you but your loved one i don t know just feeling bitter today\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso i ve been browsing this sub for a while don t have much to do today so i figured i might a well vent on here i guess to introduce myself i m currently and just recently left the active duty army to attend college on an rotc scholarship about month ago prior to that i wa deployed to afghanistan for about 0 month it s almost hard to even recall the person i used to be back then i wa so mentally strong and confident in myself and my purpose ironically despite working hour day seven day a week under constant threat of getting blown up i can t remember a time when i wa better off mentally like nothing in the world could stop me a i had a plan and wa going to stick with it and if i did end up getting murked i wa just fine with that too i stayed pretty safe for the most part although i did have a pretty close call with a rocket that landed in a ditch on the hill below the building i worked in it obviously scared the ever living fuck out of me and everyone else but after like 0 minute we were all laughing about how close that one wa and how if only the stupid guy had aimed higher he would have got u the whole affair really only strengthened my resolve and made the return home that much better getting back to the state wa probably the best moment of my life even if it wa right in the middle of covid lol i don t want to sound like i m trying to flex my great strength or anything i m just trying to describe who i wa then to who am i now a they aren t even remotely the same person problem started to arise for me around month after getting back after the novelty of being back home wore off i started to experience this weird sense of dissociation and depressive episode that would sometimes last for an hour to a day and then i would suddenly snap back to what i considered a normal state of mind these normally entailed feeling of hopelessness and dread like something in my head just wasn t ticking right and when it came to social situation it wa like i wa operating on a different frequency than everyone else like i could hear and understand them but there wa no emotion behind the word it wa distracting but manageable at that point and i just chalked it up to being burned out at work and figured once i got off active duty and into college thing would greatly improve fast forward to the first semester of college and unfortunately thing have not gone a i imagined in term of school and finance i m doing fine and everything is going according to plan externally but internally i seem to be slowly degrading bit by bit the depressive episode became more intense to the point where i would physically lock up tighten my muscle grind my teeth and it feel like my head is throbbing from all the negative thought it is nearly impossible to sleep in this state thanks to the extreme anxiety but then i would wake up the next morning and feel fine barely being able to remember how i felt the night before the cycle never stopped though and then the thought of well if you just ended it this wouldn t be a problem anymore started to kick in and that s when it really started to snowball downhill fast at this point in time it feel like i m in this depressive state nearly all the time it s only a matter of how bad it s going to be today the dissociative feeling have been cranked up to and conversation just feel like emotionless formality i can no longer connect with friend and family the way i used to like i said earlier it s like we re not on the same frequency if that make any sense the thought of suicide are ever present and feel like a big red emergency eject button begging to be pressed the only escape from these feeling are partying drug and alcohol which are great temporarily but eventually everyone go back to their life you sober up and reality slap you in the face even harder than it did last time i ve also developed a very odd fear of human intimacy that i really can t explain for instance i m a virgin which is a huge insecurity of mine and pretty embarrassing i know i always figured when i m in college i ll meet plenty of woman so there s no need to be insecure about it however i ve had several instance where woman have come onto me and i m totally comfortable with the conversation and flirty talk but once it get physical even just them grabbing me it trigger this instant fear and panic response and i make up an excuse and leave in a manic state then beat myself up for the next week about how much of a pussy i am this is honestly one of the major contributor to my broken self image a couple of week ago i randomly started bawling in my car for over an hour and honestly don t even remember why i m not eating much anymore maybe only like one meal a day and my cognitive performance motivation ha declined significantly my sleep schedule is a total mess i ll either sleep for hour and wake up from nightmare in cold sweat or sleep for and not want to get out of bed and face reality what really prompted me to post this though wa that last week i got really drunk and ended up putting a gun to my head without even thinking about it and then i realized what i wa doing that s when i kind of told myself holy shit man this is real and something is very wrong with you i need some kind of help i know but if i m diagnosed with any kind of mental health condition i ll lose my scholarship and i ve just worked too damn hard for it i ve openly told some of my close friend and family directly that i m having suicidal thought but the response is always oh c mon man your way too strong for that or you re just in a slump right now it ll pas a much a i appreciate having people who care for me and appreciate the sentiment it doesn t do much to alleviate anything i feel like i wa never meant to live this long and that that rocket wa supposed to kill me that day but i m living in some kind of an alternate reality where i survived and nothing make sense anymore at least then i could have died strong and confident rather than broken i had a friend who wa killed over there and honestly i wish i could trade place with him he deserves this life more than i do sorry i turned this into an essay but it feel good to get this out of my head for once if you read this long i hope you can relate or at least get something out of it and thank you finally i ll leave you with a song i ve been listening to on repeat for the past week lmao http www youtube com watch v ksjrcczo\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmum soup made my stomach make nasty noise\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nfor me my depression severity ha gotten worse a the year have gone by it seems that each year is collectively worse than the last i get a huge pain when i remember not how thing used to be but how i used to be 0 year ago if i could i would go back in time knowing i can t and that i m doomed to worse depression each year is almost too much to bear the whole it get better thing ha not proven true for my life and particular journey with ptsd i felt even better closer to my trauma time hasn t healed it even with year and year of different therapy the farther i get the worse i feel overall doe any one else have this feeling\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ll go back to the beginning i started dating a girl i feel i really fell in love with it lasted only month but i really felt something for her there were a few time i asked to be intimate with her with the last time her telling me she thought she wa asexual i wa fine with that and wa trying my best to adapt she wasn t a touchy partner but my love language is touch whenever she asked to tone it down i did everything i could to tone it down though in hers and my whole friend group s eye i didn t try hard enough she broke up with me over text with a long paragraph not in person because our friend group probably told her i wa shaking from anxiety that morning i talked to a friend who wasn t in the friend group about what i knew wa going to happen the girlfriend got very upset with me about that but i felt like i couldn t talk to anybody about it without them telling the girlfriend about how scared i wa i admit talking to someone else instead of her wa wrong but i felt like if i talked to the girlfriend about how scared i wa of the break up it wa going to get worse she told me i made everyone uncomfortable that i don t listen or have boundary after reading that long break up paragraph i spiraled i ran somewhere the group wouldn t find me and i completely broke down it wa so bad that i wa taken to the hospital because of my thought of self harm and worse i lost that friend group that girlfriend a lot of people from that place there s only one person in that friend group that still talk to me and i think she s annoyed with how much i dream about everyone no one in the group talk about me anymore i wa easy to get rid of and easy to forget what suck more is that this isn t the first time this happened in that group i always knew that one wrong move and i wa next and then it actually happened i haven t been able to keep track of time or my own memory i haven t been sleeping well either too little or too much i ve been using pot a lot more than i had before and i m exhausted all day every day all i want is to die\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m i ve been depressed since i wa maybe about 0 year old and i wa diagnosed in 0 0 clinical depression i struggle with substance abuse alcohol and weed and that combined with depression is what caused me to quit my job now all i do is cry and get stoned cry while being stoned sometimes and lay in bed on tiktok i m unhappy in my relationship but i m afraid of losing the best thing i ve ever had i m so unhappy with existence and i m fucking sick of being told to tough it out life isn t easy i don t care if i m not going to be born into a decent world i don t want to fucking participate it s selfish to force me to stay when i contribute nothing to society i have no goal or passion anymore my clinic psychiatrist hasn t reached out to me i quit taking my prozac because it stopped working and one specific event triggered my current depression episode regarding my family and boyfriend i m miserable is anyone else miserable\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nnkdreamer did you see donnie s tweet stats almost 00 reply and no jrk\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ngoing to watch julian play bball i want phoebe\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndid quitting nicotine actually help anyone with their anxiety\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni wish thing were different in life i m just a useless piece of shit that deserves to die i deserve all the pain i m about to receive that s just the way it is\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso why do i still feel so depressed i survived a horrible brain injury twice i did well in school and went to college and earned a degree i found love and got engaged i attended again and got a second degree i m working in the field i wanted to in the speciality that i love i have friend and family who love me i do the thing that i enjoy doing i feel hopeless i feel worn out i am bored with life at only i feel pessimistic i feel depressed doe anyone else feel like they ve done all the right thing followed all the right step and are still depressed i know this process take time but it s hard to feel motivated to continue trying when for almost eleven year nothing i m doing is helping\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni already failed out of college once but i thought i might try again at a community college well i m about to fail out of this too and for some reason nothing in me care a a child i always kind of assumed my life would be in a great place at how na ve since i ve been miserable for a long a i can remember why would life magically get any easier i just recently pieced together that my earliest memory which i never really allowed myself to understand wa my narcissistic mother attempting to drown me when i wa about year old no wonder i m so fucked up i ve been planning on killing myself before my rd birthday for the past month or so i suppose she ll get what she wanted all along\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ve been struggling super hard with my anxiety a it s popped up in the most inconvenient of time it s to the point i don t want to go out place with my boyfriend or family party or anything every time i do i have an anxiety panic attack and have to leave ha anyone had any experience overcoming this im on medication and just started therapy just get nervous and feel like something is so wrong with me and i just want to be better\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m a straight male i haven t really had a serious male friend since middle school and i ve pretty much realized that outside of family i only really want to talk to woman in general i don t exclusicely try to talk to woman that i find attractive i have trust issue with men and woman so it must be something else is this maybe some form of annxiety i have bad gad i just don t understand this aspect of myself\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m really desperate i m a yr old guy with no job even if i graduated from college no girlfriend never kissed or hugged a girl in my life no real friend most of them are toxic amp manipulative nothing special about me i don t know if i m pretty or ugly smart or dumber i m so confused about my self image it s like i live in hell get rejected by ton of girl ton of job offer i feel like i will live my whole life virgin single jobless loser i m too nice too shy always extremely anxious and stressful dealing with brain fog bad accent shitty voice low self esteem zero talent nothing good about me just kinda good at math amp coding i can t hold a good conversation with anyone only with my mom amp my brother i feel kinda confident speaking and it s been a while i m depressed living with a dark mood i feel like i m a loser amp i can do nothing i can t even go to gym practice favorite hobby or enjoying any movie youtube video video game etc i don t know what to do with my life i only think about option therapy ending my life sorry for my english it s not my native langage\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nnothin like throwin up on your customer front door\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni cant give up smoking i tried but it s not easy\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nthere is very little that people will not excuse a long a you mention depression a a primary motivator the depression free pas is extensive\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nso i prepared everything to just end it all cause i no longer see a future for myself i literally lost all meaning in my life and i just have no idea why i live anymore everything just feel empty and i just want it to end i guess but idk why i m even writing this i guess i might want to be helped but it just feel so empty my family doesn t even have an idea that i sh i just want someone to notice to care please\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nrain ruined the malaysian gp not much fun neither any money from it\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ncupcakesfortwo no pain to really be the issue though there s the thing can t figure it out\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndoe anyone else feel helpless every day i just feel like i am passing time from one shitty situation to the next what is the point i am a m father or two with two kid early teen and college age and married to my best friend career marriage etc i can t stand my job it s not the company rather the job itself i am an account manager in the pharmaceutical industry which translates to constantly apologizing for other worker s fuck ups and dealing with burnt out frustrated pharmacist all the time i never cause the problem but i am treated a such and shit get taken out on me there is absolutely no joy in this position and it suck whatever remaining happiness i have i am looking for another job i have mental health issue gad depression ptsd etc which do not help i never know how i am going to react behave or feel each day sadly no matter how i try to hide it my family always know i am seeing a therapist which help at the time but the effect always wear off in a day or two i want nothing more than for my kid and wife to be happy and content with their life i am sure that hard to do with me around following them like a storm cloud or eeyore i had a classmate i grew up with she wa awesome beautiful inside and out the type of person who make the world better just by existing she recently had a freak medical condition that caused her to have a massive stroke and pas away positive humble great mother wife she didn t deserve it no one doe i suppose in any case i wish i could have taken one for the team and taken her place she wanted to be here i don t anymore it s not fair i very rarely find joy in anything anymore kid wife family excluded i should be and want to be okay not happy or content it s just not there sorry just venting thank you for listening\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m year old and i ve been depressed since sophomore in high school during those year i ve tried my best to keeping myself together not showing my true emotion try to make friend make people laugh etc and of course i still go through battle within myself but i ve been the victor so far recently it s been incredibly difficult i ve been contemplating suicide more often than usual now i am not saying that i m going to go through with it because it would absolutely destroy my family especially my mom they love me and i m lucky to have friend that care about me a well however i can t help but notice that my life is a complete and utter joke i ve made no accomplishment really nothing of value that i ve made a a year old person and it s getting to me i m not an intelligent person i have no ambition i have no drive and i have no goal in life compared myself to everyone else i m a loser i m a loser and i know it for a fact and i feel like my friend and family even my peer at work know it a well i m a joke now it ha been a struggle to keep my emotion and thought under control people start to notice a change in my demeanor when i talk to them noticing how i m not acting a my usual self my true emotion is starting to show itself and unending thought of suicide ha gone rampant i believe i am losing myself day by day and i m trying my damnedest to keep up appearance and not letting people worry about me of course i can t afford to go to therapy session or get my hand on prescribed medication so i m only left with limited resource hell i just got denied health insurance without a clue a to why honestly i m not sure what i m expecting by posting here i just appreciate anyone that took the time of their day to read my run of the mill sob story and perhaps giving their two cent thanks\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\near size 00 hurt watching chaos theory wonderful movie love it\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhugbubble im keeping my distance well well away from your comment this is not good for the male specie\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]

[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nefbwrites fantasypeddler my depression\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]