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tommorow exciting tommorow first day highschool poland nervous tip choosed programming school wish luck guy | non-suicide |
girl internet not sexist | non-suicide |
apparently nobody care suicidalto keep long story short possible pretty sure doctor mixed med luvox asked switched prozac got approved nurse told take not switch even pharmacist said sounded wrong called doctor check said right taking med month go get luvox buspar refilled pharmacy say med taken record month ago started th e prozac thinking doctor fucked not suppose taking ssri emailed office portal week ago response quit psychiatric med cold turkey finally last monday called told suicidal thought needed see doctor said would get message back booked month call every clinic within mile say not taking new patient short notice like today usually take xanax needed like week ever since stop med gone regularly today took lunch time function lunch decide really need help head urgent care tell feeling suicidal want see someone tell not allowed change med urgent care not help let walk door without word fuck possible legal saying nobody care dead true | suicide |
think depression week angry sad tell someone not yea tell parent friend | non-suicide |
tiredi tried everything med therapy dbt ect list go end year nothing truly get better last two month completely cut every connection not leave house anymore not even want give not anymore done not anymore | suicide |
would better people make slightly offensive meme complain x many people complaining edgy meme unreal subreddit become post made karma farming going think stop making post people complaining meme would better sheer quantity post making good quality post hard find not know considered complaining ironic still issue need addressed better people thing complaining not good word probably come every wrong way | non-suicide |
understand want endi used part would anyone commit suicide group like imagine people spent year suicidal ideation passive suicidal thought reached point seeing people get rescued attempt saddens see people reach point try end suffering dragged back life become hard watch read incredibles played laugh ring true not save life ruined death not muster sort acceptable reaction someone committing suicide come conversation anymore want empathize hopefully take final step like soon | suicide |
long acceptable diagnosed bipolar borderline personality disorder severe anxiety depression issue since year old quit job loved filed disability focus getting better however state mind constantly whipping back forth not feel made much progress therapy med not help tired want feel like everyone holding emotionally hostage telling much would miss not understand want peace long go like acceptable drop curtain | suicide |
tf fuckibg horny want normal | non-suicide |
keeping alivefirst time posting not sure really think figured feel keeping killing debt not imagine leaving family debt pay kill would say live pretty good life comparatively people not shake feeling not want continue not want depressed suicidal like not help matter try anyway think pay debt sell stuff ready go maybe need someone talk not know anymore | suicide |
look pretty adapt | non-suicide |
helpim year old want disappear dad anger issue mom mental health issue feel happiness going online playing video game hate going outside like room hate responsibility always wish alone not friend not think want try happy really hard always feel like | suicide |
wanted someone fucking love mei wanted someone love yet let completely destroy not person used depression resurfaced recently beaten god life hard nobody understands wanted happy want help people yet not even help worthless | suicide |
ignore not worth time not read post not worth time sad desperate not even write feeling right say not handle anymore | suicide |
weak hate myselfeverything life right frustrating not think making progress regardless much effort put many setback without anything positive happening stupid stressful family argument insomnia anxiety worry health problem feel mentally weak damaged depression lost interest thing used really like thing going manage get decent grade previously school university push like hell still friend peer seem light year ahead confident talented happy even though good friendship feel like complete loser next thing run smoothly perhaps spark envy also fear might not ever date girl stay lonely forever doubt future career not clear purpose life nothing much live world extremely competitive fear struggle compete end loser hating life past year felt miserable like almost every day kept going hope improvement hate inadequate weak perhaps logical thing would end life go much longer not want burden anyone | suicide |
many bad daysi not feeling struggle today feel alone hopeless not able escape thought suicide week life seems get worse time go think time not want live anymore | suicide |
got lost forest hour ok context live buttfuck middle nowhere family owns fairly large piece property mostly wood bit acre bored decide might good idea walk around border property well marked old stone wall start walking around go well first reach first corner square shaped piece land minor difficulty since stone wall not intact thought next side square go even smoother first stone wall almost fully intact third side thing really get rough complete dumbass decided not bring phone tell parent going walk tell time fitbit already two hour going third side property quickly lose track crumbling stone wall end pretty much guess go turned back walk wood another hour realize based previous time probably gotten back fourth side road keep going hoping going bit slower soon hit appears path never seen walking dad walk little way end grove tree point decide go back route since time still believed time going right way intersect path along walk begin get worried never seen soon dark bit pm time eventually hit another one path decide best course action follow hoping lead road path end quite long split many branch keep going straight time really starting get dark although still see finally reach end path see spooky looking old run cottage curious mf decide take peek since not light inside door made rotting plywood open looking inside pretty much nothing besides step ladder corner hole floor seeing nothing going leave not exactly spooky cottage probably hoping keep going path eventually reach road recognize neighbor long driveway run back road house dark not exciting quite fun finding way pretty spooked old cottage first tldr got lost forest dark found spooky old cottage turned nothing spooky | non-suicide |
going sleepplease good holy let die please beg done not let one thing please | suicide |
put record sit cup tea song make feel like life totally ok everything fine not ya know alteast minute second pretend like | non-suicide |
dracula room somewhere currently mission eliminate blood sucking monster tried seek twice patiently waiting hear high pitch buzzing come approach luck bravo six going dark | non-suicide |
basically everyone ignoring nice teacher including decided try nice back talking drug bad affected life stopped using seem happy sinse someone paying attention class way sorry bad english | non-suicide |
moment crush passing note ah almost died cool end day everyone dance except teacher come say not liek dancing said awkward laughter said oh okay way note passing crush name kind panicked said uhh nothing interesting bruh edit also yes another crush post r teenager | non-suicide |
going fail need help making poster introduces rest class homework include idea | non-suicide |
one care anymore living nothingi feel like going mad word going sound funny going crack joke trying cope really hard not even know friend not even vent venting even feel fucking useless every time breathe walk wake burden everyone pure waste space know killer right sibling would happy get bedroom get clothes ukulele egg chair would sell stuff forget feel valued nobody nobody value tried talk mom not even without scared fuckign childhood trauma every time fail threatens take everything away threatens sel dog dad even worse yell friend happy liek not even talk anymore one talk anymore always intimate everything find problem everything say not simple find new friend every time end blocming adding not get wrong wrong everything say problem repulsive people not even want talk bomb every relationship romantic platonic talk therapist always say thing technique not even working anymore hitting fucking road block mom not respect | suicide |
til jesus christ book called bible not white he asian wtf | non-suicide |
old enough sex first | non-suicide |
question fuck male snoo banner | non-suicide |
goti got mg seroquel willing bet alcohol drinking enough go bed tonight never get | suicide |
think one crush said preferred reddit instagram guy think one | non-suicide |
ah reddit icon changed orange thought wanted know | non-suicide |
bruh ever moment like teacher huge misconception something talking super cringe know get awkwardly corrected sitting lol like not blame teacher getting wrong like damn cringe not know special flavor cringe | non-suicide |
sick wanting die tried everything point drug legal not legal exercise videogames overeating undereating empathy apathy etc person opinion solely based objectivity longer act volition react logically competition lost lb write music talked people suicide demon allows sympathise others made home right inside heard many people complain life not make depressed done everything power change thing better guess depression nothing material possession personal achievement depression make feel worthless persevere want not fill hole inside paycheck fuck supposed rock anyways want contentment sedation bliss | suicide |
something need tell suicidal year awful time good time mostly numb time not make big speech saying different head somehow bright wonderful place not think anyone truly live planet thing better lot better reason not saw therapist although sure would help many people not gave tough talk changed display phone motivational quote trapped cage fear cage though miserable safe safe hypothetical danger meandering ifs possible terrible scenario ignoring dangerous one manipulated controlled lied mind lied made think not capable not able not enough anything anyone easier kinder let alone stagnate exist nothing anything anyone would get dressed tell going outside progress ok ok dead nothing else feel reason grow got point carry would physically dead emotionally mentally dead crashed glass took comfort zone smashed right blew lid glass jar would screwed tight stopped comfortable sent email company took random chance shot took sign flew dragged root ground would tightly hooked pumping soul full toxin long scared terrified wanted cower wanted safe pit hole misery not scary safe life much shook head screamed went outside got flight job terrified would shit bit got better good good something something liked met people terrified meet liked laughed sound real hugged someone called friend felt like natural thing fell love person never could dreamed head real sex felt another person properly not want anywhere else not remembered feeling way year tasted rain swam lake surrounded mountain rehashed view watched old self cower fade away saw new self able free saw saw could lied think liar not know yet get scared get uncomfortable hell get uncomfortable feel sick make heart pound scream head tell point scream told go home not home not home point world black hole wrap around illusion making answer not pill endless therapy quote video hug pat back answer answer confidence confidence knowing capable know know go live | suicide |
drunk hotel roomfeeling depressed suicidal made bunch mistake not fixed | suicide |
showed bio teacher wearing boxer google meet pls kill online class today decided wear shirt would usually wear school lazy wore boxer would see right messed teacher said goodbye class finished one one logged also said goodbye hi stood stretched hand went mouse looking window instead clicking exit accidentally clicked video button turned half way class low behold sir watch boxer two u google meet froze minute looking eye slowly raised quickly went exit button clicked panicking want die embarrassment good thing first year teaching gave laughing emoji tagging name class group chat made worse said not worry not tell anyone everyone think secret private stuff alone also pissed not put haha message lost translation replied sorry sir since bio teacher new well good looking everyone thought confessed noticed last one leave meeting pls kill maybe | non-suicide |
wish could dream forever least way better living life | non-suicide |
everyone dy alone long story short really bad state health wise abandoned everyone know not many people begin everyone abandoned health guess would okay enough effort could pull cut contact people turned actually horrible self centered un caring move struggle wake every morning feel like literally dying not money pay health therapy mental anguish living america seriously expensive especially something bad happens ruin someone forever one even pull not sure could ever form relationship anyone one thing learned nobody really give fuck anyone met one person seemed care turn motif abandoned got sick recently actively encouraging kill see future anyone west american dream dead | suicide |
tf not post image want post art made | non-suicide |
damn tried drawing something today soon realised bad never | non-suicide |
anyone else inspector call gcse wondering read book first time month need tip studying thanks | non-suicide |
hey boy want sexually active pussy taste like metal lightning clean penis taste like avocado stay safe always wear condom | non-suicide |
not sure go not want make sister brother sad not anymore not understand not know like feel way money struggling bad not even food eat account friday pay bill money kind life living pay check pay check work hr week go school full time exhausted even looking another job not find anything allow work around hate friend none could die one would come funeral except sibling mom died year ago really miss one ever believed loved deeply supported best friend never said think knew way would always point thing not sweet referring lesbian couple shopping together always rolled eye never saw getting not know month ago finally realized telling ok still confused not know family homophobic would never understand know love would never understand not really believe god thought maybe really good life way could see got super religious turned lord not feel like living truth stopped religion not trying hold even whole life hanging waiting get better not try mom know would proud far come not sorry poorly writing story fighting back tear really not know depressed not take struggle anymore sibling given lot already not want ask | suicide |
anyone else gotten little elaborate suicidal fantasy would never ever like actually choose spent full fucking hour imagining live streamed death gave speech importance going vegan improving american public transportation roped not even vegan | suicide |
not personal resource handle life suicide waiting something worse option finished | suicide |
god fucking frustrated right really not believe science audacity tell wrong going college studying done sub people infuriate think loser going college studying passionate telling drug bad | non-suicide |
taking much spaceto preface older younger sister mental health issue strained family point told suck feeling mom could not handle still think still not suck failed fully faking believe going problem family keep living want die not deal focus bigger problem die not worry college hospital bill food bill anything focus sister not worry fixing mom could focus dad would extra money clinical trial ect medication therapy suck right | suicide |
hey stop scrolling reminding great day | non-suicide |
douchebags like love tip fedora lady sorry boyfr fucking cunt bitchass go hell | non-suicide |
could use help one know order flesh light without parent knowing want one not know | non-suicide |
hi everyone day going far since last posted subr anyways hi guy | non-suicide |
ex girlfriend mom racisttuesday february break go girlfriend house cousin mom call little brother talk get back say mom think not seen friend black asian want talk mom speaks cantonese speak english one willing translate ex belief not talk mom not way thing meaning asian parent however proceeds break mother threatened future mom supplying money school putting roof head high school right not know not make effort get better suicidal not let talk mom not try talk mom not relationship let u others dictate life told school worried hurting promised unless genuinely scared life whatever asked keep u would statement got sent hospital evaluated moment could said hurt get exactly yesterday yes suicidal thought darker cut le would not able see clearly see scar body forgets wear hoodie not angry want understand someone tell | suicide |
uk bad decision awful starting hand ruined already checking see started tech startup friend graduating month ago worked hr day much physical mental detriment meant huge charitable marketplace uni student trade note connect union etc got really far needed get loan took thing went south due estimating cost would need bring market fully usable state k debt friend equally mess stop working find work shitty huh leaving lurch like looking job knowing mean pack shop officially not even found one month looking pretty diligently former self heavily depressed reclused year working nobody around anymore deleted soc medium account got rid phone recently like pre prepared easy exit unknowingly feel like woke reality happened truthfully think going next day top not want hit reason found painless easy way go destroy mother raised brother alone inner city london worked hard put food table love u much not spoken anyone family properly long stuck lost kg last year gaunt wrecked scared go outside unable talk anyone seek therapy would even help ready die accept whatever consequence might not even write talk publicly would disqualify someone worthy investment despite idea platform getting load attention past year tired would like say love hope young un take care finance properly matter great feel idea many people believe help not jump startup university not please entrepreneurship pure hardship without strong character around end burnt financially ruined sadly amount working going dent k student loan find job admit done not probably snap sooner sitting front pc hour day trying find work working alone platform mum still busting as keep food table electricity gas bill paid feel awful like could not describe worthless | suicide |
one turn quarantine killing time think feel remember wtf wrong world happen | suicide |
people make not understand people live year old god say dae suicide bad literally feel not pas | suicide |
suicide plan got derailedi planning od ing next week painkiller wisdom teeth removal doctor gave pill not enough lethal dose guess blessing loved one decided sign try get professional help going go intensive outpatient program hope help also feel like band aid feel hopeless wish could die wish not try get better wish not strong | suicide |
finally got supportive friend last year got friend tried make look weird stupid weak needed think every thing would use randomly punched upper arm also needed watch last year also got knife throat friend really want best really supportive | non-suicide |
find funny one share unpopular opinion someone make post people commenting true | non-suicide |
snoop dogg hire post hot added part lullaby hush little nigga not cry gangbangers gon drive little nigga lullaby know not want die go sleep not nigga want hear weep gangbangers not care cheap end whole family one sweep | non-suicide |
overdosed propranololi could not take anymore moment madness took mg propranolol pill not felt anything yet min feeling little bit slow tired worried | suicide |
wish asking help real world easyi wish getting help real world easier constantly told go see doctor ask pill ease anxiety one time told see psychiatrist something not afford not even get word see doctor ask help not afford therapy little family rarely speak not really friend would expect year old girl work marketing plenty alone entire life acquaintance really want get better destroying life eat badly drinking getting worse suffering work try set aside loneliness going tinder date sleeping guy not like getting drunk practically begging someone every time think something going work guy not go back square one sat bathtub hour cry drinking holding knife hand could not even kill feel like bad everything not even kill survived much tired surviving really hate life need someone talk sorry real not know right | suicide |
totally fine rejected really said fine not upset slightest fine said goddamn fucking fine fucking fuck sake | non-suicide |
slow process ending iti writing suicide note researching collecting supply saying goodbye giving away stuff gave therapy med month ago pushed away family slowly pushing away friend done point not know know going hope not survive time want feel like shit not know think anymore tired point feel guilty ashamed angry feeling way wanted tell someone say something not instead plan death part worse going hurt fiancee sibling point treat like kid shit person not life anymore not deserve life anymore | suicide |
mod r aspiepositivity killed friendthey gave permanent ban wrong use sent edge chinese fcol wrong use pronoun common not know | suicide |
tik tok officially banned u news link | non-suicide |
stop friend someone without rude friend overall nice guy say weird shit although like think not care people think really stuff make really uncomfortable associated label weird kid top also somewhat follows around not really picture situation telling not hurt asshole | non-suicide |
parent beat treat like slave not fight back else stir troublei want stab sleep take money run away not know happen future | suicide |
not suicidal not feel like clear sense purpose anymore compels want partake living thing want accomplish life feel doable truly believe could achieve said goal yet idea hell supposed align whatever would need order get make happen leading world frustration not clear order proven instruction barely map territory also not like get access thing easily thing also really not talk people personal reason guess starting feel like life next pointless dream thing want live though never willing settle anything else would turn prayer affirmation though month month year even not getting result want absolutely hate feeling existing sort isolation purgatory advice maybe turn prayer kind person ever happy desired result anything never feel acceptable | suicide |
bought razor bladesi not self harmed year going really tough time right though nothing try endure suicidal fucking thing depressed think anything used self harm would pry open pencil sharpener get blade often not good gone bought double edged razor blade kind use shaving looking forward perverse way never done proper blade benefit adult guess hope not cut deep accident would ironic cutting survive easier end killing | suicide |
want kill scared painokay first not want get comment get better b want need advice tried get plastic bag head run front fast moving vehicle scared pain not know happen survive want painless death le | suicide |
happens text suicide hotline shy not know call police end making feel worse | non-suicide |
end itmy boyfriend told get life head translates end feel worthless like toxin world sitting pill going back fourth ending not want toxin world | suicide |
fuck hate quarantine hair not gone barber month hate fucking dodoodododododo | non-suicide |
need helpi alot pain recently need help fallen love friend girlfriend not mean reveal recently kind feel like world collpasing espeically since spent year patching telling never reveal secret anyone could use help | suicide |
anyone talk bored right got nothing feel free hmu | non-suicide |
feeling like couldi always feeling like could throw away like would make free first time time force emotion younger dad abusive mean could not stand mom never divorced grew ridiculed learned suppress emotion could not stand anymore recently heard hit year old sister heard party pm freaked fuck got angry started balling eye despite public knowing could not help point buddy took home passed mom said getting divorce feeling not able help hurt get bad idea even worse thing stopping knowing would little sister social life fucked family life need reassurance want end | suicide |
not fuck everyone get hype banger | non-suicide |
not know kill workive overdosing benadryl everyday passed month hope organ shut get seizure yet work going try tylenol alcohol method see work | suicide |
little rant parent divorced still friend though mom think get use phone much dad think want go house one main reason like dad house mom get angry many little thing like soccer game couple day ago third game day first thing get angry say acting lazy etc not paying walk around field game dad saying stuff like good job etc also couple week ago yelled cutting sausage wrong holding fork wrong way oof thanks coming ted talk | non-suicide |
day watching scary movie celebration spooktober today watching escape room six stranger trying escape mysterious room filled worst nightmare link previous post | non-suicide |
people billionaire people complaining worried going able good enough job future would considered middle class not best student know trying say parent got high hope constantly depressed trying figure want parent proud shit ahh depressing | non-suicide |
find friend transferring tiny school new school also pandemic not really know many people would great could say hi something comment | non-suicide |
billion people planet think world fine without world not revolve around not special life not special simulation | suicide |
u w u u | non-suicide |
explain mother wear face mask nose even went full day wearing mask glass prove point not hard still not wear nose | non-suicide |
tired guy head hurt always confused scared alone not know anymore point continuing really not energy clean take care go school not life ruined need rest rest never come know always fighting argument house tired tired school tired alone tired everything going world tired man | suicide |
floundering bipolar ii disorder suicidal thought month ago moved prague first time ever lived outside town grew needle say environmental stressor abundant taking medication ever psychiatrist therapist not seem idea save increase dosage know people town none well dump suicidal ideation naturally decide toss complete stranger please help eloquent week amazed strength convey really not know else afraid light end tunnel not see right please reddit girl away home without support system family friend doctor amp medication going work back bit thank much help woke morning could breathe thanks reddit | suicide |
want stop existingtrying act strong hide everything tearing apart not want die want happy not feel hole chest heart feeling complete emptiness live one day another numb not thing used enjoy much killing loved write not put single word paper used write thousand word day gone not talk anyone one come realize completely utterly alone unwanted moment born | suicide |
better life get realize brain fucked maybe end allmy childhood fucked life fucked thing imporving married place wonderful dog artist actually quite good decent job fairly low stress considering retail still depressed trapped abused scared closet trans try go outside drink water active go therapy still feel like shit bother even thing go well still feel dead inside want end life end suffering know suicide permenant solution temporary problem fix problem know suicide not end chance life getting worse eliminates possibility ever getting bwtter life gotten better not feel fucking better granted life not great low income health issue barely afford apartment husband not pay attention also depressed draw fuck guess also thanks fucking covid canceling surgery going make feel much better | suicide |
not suicidalbut black come back wrong lane taking corner wake nightmare cold sweat not figure relieved disappointed still better reality scream top lung head one see make constant joke sad go week not speak word loud ok not suicidal | suicide |
think peace felt depressed whole life thought always dark suicidal like want hurt end cought web terrible emotion would feel bad feeling way think made peace not life fact one day kill not sure unless freak accident sure wonder father felt way trying hold little kid sake worried curse well hope not | suicide |
fucking angry fuck people not ever trust fucking soul god hate place cold ruthless unforgiving fuck living fuck existence not even want heaven ish afterlife hope absolutely nothing blackness dead memory anything living not side life sole misery fuck life feel like already dead anyway | suicide |
point living barely job friend joy liked stupid learn new stuff skill hobby turn people away family dosen want around live | suicide |
absolute essential school subject today thinking school much useless shit teach u teacher justify either exercise mind least would something useful discover student passion artist since exist found passion exploring ramification art like animation voice acting music writing thought school teach u actually useful thought language communication math logic processing counting history not repeat humanity past mistake throw question onto subject school think essential | non-suicide |
going hang myselfi not even know feel bored guess thought done living going spend many year school get job hate family love kind sad made decision | suicide |
not function anymore not know doi need vent delete dumb post xdxd failing class not used brain solve anything past month feel like not function anymore not think rationally attention span destroyed adhd coming full force not know tell family lied schoolwork dissociate time not remember yesterday life not feel real many expections standard sophomore year not fulfil not recognize anytime look mirror also get filled much regret not know reach not single friend since elementry school slowely rotting away loneliness not take anymore not really suicidal overthink id get ptsd called suicide hotline chat becuz last time two cop came wanted take away right front parent judgemental sister | suicide |
somebody help knowledged subject bought glass zenni bought photochromic gray one sitting outside minute not changed id appreciate someone help | non-suicide |
losing motivation suicide attempt three year trying countless medecations therapist along type therapy neurofeedback not keep trying anymore nothing changed not worth anymore keep amount effort caused harm good plus entire city quarantine even slight glimmer chance improve halted could week month year like pipe full pressure release valve nothing brings enjoyment release anymore not worth hope fading faster | suicide |
already le dead talked parent recent arrest marijuana possession need lawyer going cost lot money not fact since failed college not found work pretty much waste parent time effort money recent arrest mean nearly impossible get job thousand dollar debt despite average intelligence natural athletic ability never single successful venture entire life award academic athletic otherwise plan ever made ever worked nothing life proud nothing would look good resume worsening employment sitution apparently lot potential told entire life seem unable get anywhere near moving wrong direction besides never kind meaningful relationship absolutely intimacy appear unable connect fellow human deep lasting way confidence self esteem never not talk woman see undesirable advance made would unforgivably rude talking parent arrest mother asked anything say could think wish dead not say stayed silent secretly wished death year thought putting popped last year not stop driving see car jumping guard rail toppling cliff eating want take knife open vein sorry bothered post extremely self indulgent almost every sentence started thank time | suicide |
got die something right better not guess void yelling might much coward fucking anyway ready ready debt keep fucking career path fucked lot people know toxic terrible person tried fix fucking tried chosen bridge jump snowing maybe go walk decide aim land lot people survive jump bridge structure not tall enough one mistake not make always get weird thing suicidal start feel affectionately toward people like driving seeing someone enjoy cup coffee play dog put headphone hope take care thanks letting read story vent finish work soon guess see hoping succeed | suicide |
feel alone f diagnosed bipolar ptsd low tonight clean self harm year want tonight much bad want end overwhelming amount pain not know reason not remember last time someone asked customer job say manager not tell want kill would big problem girl almost year long distance month moving back soon could not give two fuck think life easy yeah compared struggling mentally one seeing making angry feel insignificant stupid bottling shit want die want fucking end not feel like worth anything anymore | suicide |