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take nothing seriously think may problem going go | non-suicide |
hopless lifewhats point going way improve eat healthy sonner later die rot underground point put much hard work effort life know going die not life little eaiser give mercy depressed tried as life disapointment kid never thought would end like never thought much waste time everything not help feel way people always tell better work harder reality lost lost motivation lol motivation begin | suicide |
planning unexpected break lot suicide contemplation recently came way escape system loop everyday life week parent go weekend often week preparing moment loneliness head mile around bottle water lot food disused quarry tent stay week day go walking running working writing latest book not sure definitely going happen maybe ill go week school break july either way going staying leave note know not committed suicide murdered something reason get away suffering modern society endless loop misery brings natural world away modern horror something seek even short amount time post go explain went | suicide |
student debt not forgiven change mind u forgiving student debt not solve problem future student going debt fact encourages hope debt forgiven well punishes paid way college chose not go college let discussion begin edit thought matter interested | non-suicide |
iti not think supposed live much past point life falling apart alone tired sad tierd everything cave nothing sleep end wish could done sorry | suicide |
itching closer closer everyday itching closer closer everyday end suffering depressed different worse much worse alone literally nobody family abandoned girl ex abandoned knowing nobody alone broke going back forth friend house not sleep street anymore literally not see life getting better life suck not get better going continue walk closer closer edge snap starting not care people anymore first like not want kill not want hurt certain people not care literally want done b tired tired alive not see ever get better life fucking suck suffering every single day | suicide |
saw liked harry potter word wand replaced penis owofier bot hawwys penis vibwating though ewectwic chawge suwging thwough youw penis wucius wequiwe youw penis vowdemowt dwew penis compawed wengths tawk penis wike got feewings said hawwy wike think fow themsewves hawwy penis stiww hand would jumped gone stwaight one twoww nostwiws dwacos sweek bwack penis identicaw fathews penis faw hawwy couwd wemembew youw fathew othew hand favowed mahogany penis eweven inch thewe moment gwaveyawd whewe vowdemowt penis mine sowt connected snape way panting gwound james siwius advanced penis waised thewe wot mowe magic hawwy quickwy found waving youw penis saying funny wowds youw penis hawwy use youw penis hewmione shouted thewe wiww foowish penis waving ow siwwy incantation cwass way youwe moving youw penis said hewmione watching cwiticawwy | non-suicide |
merry christmas sorry american not yet good time family friend unable see due current pandemic get see due time | non-suicide |
feel losti cut replace suicide point not even know feel anymore | suicide |
life fuck every single fucking day want die not want anymore felt like adult life mind never changed not single day not treat diabetes hoping kill unlucky enough not suffer illness not even get cold currently sat high wall pier right pjs not time prepare going tonight wanted share much life fate laugh face managed pay last pack cigs garage closest seafront combining payment two credit card bank account seriously overdrawn lol walked east stay another day began playing radio lol felt like someone somewhere fucking laughing man hope da godmother somewhere waiting join also woman garage not meet eye not completely solidified hatred people entire race humanity compassion probably never even realise last person ever spoke looked yeah tonight not strongest swimmer not able fight current north sea cold enough succumb drown hope peace x | suicide |
oh god please help scared fucking scared going kill not want sadness loneliness unbearable seriously not anymore long ten year battling mental illness shred hope future left currently uni studying social work great casual job job interview disability support worker next week depression debilitating none stuff matter not think ever ever recover please help not know rope tied closet gather courage | suicide |
barely eat anything sit computer day hobby failing school friend not run second without stopping wheezing skeleton eat meal two day couple friend school none outside walk around school circle lunch sit toilet bathroom not want seen sitting skill clue going life got report card failing course school not say not go people one want hang tried never used like used popular smart moved friend failing fuck | suicide |
longer wish live not kill unhappy life like job hate not quit not leave mother child father suicide would kill not want also not want let grandmother small circle friend life living nightmare not know | suicide |
finally get crusty old man room mom asks th time today gaze upon skin drying flaking away catatonic tremble let u soft groan fear not know got probably drank corner one day never move never utters word never stop replenish breathes exists life fabric time kind way man home spider web spider egg sacred bursting open burrowed nostril occasional change routine look back mom already told take care bit deep know procrastinating | non-suicide |
everything succeed except mental healthi not give fuck still find job not want job want meant idiot forbidding due mental health issue nothing lost bye | suicide |
bored | non-suicide |
not okay tell someone | suicide |
friend messaged saying want inch dick as immediately deleted message scared guy gross like ewewewwewewwe | non-suicide |
asked god sign car stopped workingis hope reason faith seen lot weird messed thing nothing bad people known heard still everything experienced taken bit humanity wonder human lot right feel resentful bleak like huge debt universe roof head two cat love part time job health part like rut entire life always something majorly wrong whether environment people three thing always stuck going dream life would like lead think may insane stupid thing talk people honestly anything truthful perception world think push people away self deprecating not fake way air head forgetful whiny self absorbed also genuinely kind helpful open minded value idea thing supposed like right feel like thing set back way feel like point asshole ignorant something would get somewhere life not know going contemplating death really long time hurt everything bother live world work self people must shitty person must truly case even not not dead | suicide |
kill got dad gun waiting mom take kid house wish could go prison guy destroyed body take hopefully stuck hell hole tortured every day rest life half body destroyed drunk driver never sex always need someone take care constant pain angry bitter time not take anymore | suicide |
etymology word coochie like even come | non-suicide |
easy cut easy cut yet hard actually kill people able see eye depressed truly want kill end pain not fucking get piss tf want end end | suicide |
depression suck pretty objectively great life upper middle class whatnot every day struggle get bed not find know lucky another part problem make feel worse since not feeling way yet not know maybe fact feel way evidence not also know not post problem need vent whatever sick disease really wanted say | non-suicide |
give reason live not take school anymore hate sex gave virginity away free guy lesbian wanted feel better every sad boy hard make noise really cry hopefully not look tear filled face one boy manipulated sexually assaulted not since everyday wake go school see rapist everyday attack school not seem worth anymore not worth anything want give away people deserving | suicide |
donald trump coronavirus apparently honestly not even surprised honest | non-suicide |
happiest time life pregnant week alone feel actually want diei relapsed week ago heroin knew pregnant know ob stopped boyfriend found hate worried hell leave not want talk obvs live together he angry understand never felt terrified alone terror life seriously considered killing already love baby want give wonderful life know feeling terror shaken | suicide |
shame privileged suicidal grew lap luxury loving generous amazing family anyone could wish circle good friend care lot feel able normal social around suffered overwhelming debilitating depression latter half life many time acknowledged suicide way end sooner later deepest regret many life not done sooner watch trajectory life flop friend everyone knew including one time believed would go become doctor vet great thing could worked little harder instead took crappy job college quit year later follow dream realized late dream not going happen unemployed living parent ashamed social desire die getting stronger stronger passing day many people world worse still love life make feel like worthless ungrateful piece shit wanting bring grief family | suicide |
trump supporter american school bully poor muslim need branded unamerican exposed putin loving scum end liberal homosexuality approving american muslim get justice deserve | non-suicide |
horny hitting hard like bonk need jailor horny jail | non-suicide |
hate among u ruined word sus slowly starting reuse word sus back july joji used sounded cool not say sus without thinking among u | non-suicide |
not alone mental health sticker social medium post poster say suicidal thought yet everyday walk apartment alone struggle clean shower eat alone went doctor appointment mental health hospital alone much better place ngl comment message reddit made le alone everything else life guess trying say life not movie secret best friend come help drowning depressive mess one really going reach make sure ok stay ok heck even doctor therapist not really care one even give hug not suicidal anymore posting say alone still alone even barely give crap one exhausted every resource trying get better one stayed make sure not cut wrist use duck tape arm band one helped panic attack hold ice shower even learned meditate b c talking way get probably relapse probably feel suicidal not today next week next month next year either way solitary experience not alone line lie still survive lt | suicide |
sign overthinking thing open personal problem not open problem anyone else ik awhile back month ago told furry later also told one told sister showed video made comment said look like long story tl dr used get basically drunk sleep deprived happened multiple time chilling random vc night get vc yell go bed talk like minute also one reason might not like back playing minecraft one day not talk like minute thing dad come room say mom back vacation friend right leaf call not talked think not want family know | non-suicide |
want die girlhello need help never asked anything web paranoid forgive english swiss want die love girl much not love told bu nothing change not know move thinking every second f existance dreamming almost everynight think crazy dependent personality disorder often acting like tv show character talk feel something et break anger take controll brain say thing not want say think happening moment not trust parent talk not social not friend bestfriend yes friendzoned laugh not not care anymore bit obsessed scarified name skin ugly evil someone could help would nice know hard even tried talk god not answer not know could stand long help make list thing dpd thanks | suicide |
feel lonely damn need new friend not even know say actually lot not find effort say find anyone interested actually lie like couple good friend would want know not know pride independence amp includes emotional independence guess make cold wondering passionate stuff make life interesting heartbreaking not know need someone talk friend not think want really vent distract amp uk way | non-suicide |
oi british lad want banter got add text cock reason pm comment want banter | non-suicide |
anybody notice subreddit turning like twitter sure agree alot crap people saying sbout sexism racism homophobic stuff realized post everywhere getting annoying not know going really not speak not reddit lol | non-suicide |
never felt losti giving treatment everyone say hope help eventually person run option feel different started tell person really want help not sure inability cause suffer suffering higher importance causing suffering getting relieved fair going slowly withdraw world clearly help medical field two psychiatrist therapist appointment current psychiatrist different med would say med not want run risk sounding like exaggerating feeling not defined explained therefore not helped not able put word feeling anyone know people around not feel like people around not take pill day feel incredibly hopeless take xanax lorazepam drink almost every night spend per week weed dab know rare not helped seen top doctor area excruciatingly guilt producing since know much parent worry much spend afford fine feel like monetary equivalent special need kid live home commuting great college apply medical leave absence freshman year reason not suicidal time reached breaking point please let know left important detail whole picture also please let know written anything could traced back not want police show gun drawn like people tried hotline would scared anything one response piece advice would help lot right | suicide |
not angry really really disappointed also tv month | non-suicide |
tell whether horny really bored want j also somehow not | non-suicide |
vote oblivion want achieve karma screenshot post regain karma | non-suicide |
hate horrible person not deserve livei manipulate boyfriend constantly make give thing take away get upset make worry not want not mean hurt adore anything think know best want never leave molested child multiple people violent sexual fantasy make feel like monster want hit tied used not anything stop want say stop ignored sick feel disgusting not know wrong guilt wanting raped hurt happens many people including consumes feel disgusting feel like horrible human waste space insufferable attention whore never satisfied always need feel invisible not feel desired want wanted anything amount attention person ever enough feel like hole taking trying feel full never enough ending emptier emptier hate truly hate wish not exist | suicide |
not anymore sick trying people saying get better gotten worse not anything year old friend stuck house damn day thanks ignorant mom whose main feeling like shit since th grade talking make want cringe honestly not stand anymore matter much say kill abd actually attempt nothing happens terrible thing say envy people actually go suicide honest | suicide |
not love surgical mask not deserve minion mask | non-suicide |
drunk right thinking going depart tonight pathetic everyone grew successful unemployed girlfriend future dark light end tunnel ending pain seems like best option otherwise keep suffering not see point pain anymore going end light not feel anything | suicide |
busy worrying yalls ex busy trying solve quadratic formula | non-suicide |
half class not active group discussion like class | non-suicide |
painful noosei one ready go looking wondering painful going answer | suicide |
ok looked outside first fucking clean window shit dirty second fuck see swear never touched drug life | non-suicide |
another bored post kind not wonder people religious belief not specifically believe religion believe multiple god deity spirit exist maybe even infinite also believe thing like manifestation chakras know origin mostly believe astrology not really believe daily weekly horoscope monthly yearly one accurate also use tarot card sometimes not much hide parent also please keep respectful | non-suicide |
killed brother would probably better lifehonestly not suicidal past feel like could make younger brother life better brother one older one younger say b older c younger form mental illness c diagnosed depression anxiety b social anxiety fairly certain also depression though probably not get seen put thing perspective also diagnosed depression ocd social anxiety trio fucked people currently year old depressed since least started show obvious sign hit really bad spot point life really really wanted die school became difficult dropped officially decided try ged instead around time c started therapy unlike parent paid attention saw got proper treatment avid making sure getting help needed kind shoved side since not well school still chance guess since thing pretty much therapy took antidepressant little therapy due living circumstance constantly badgered mom saying knew stronger not want rely drug wanted live see not go therapy take antidepressant found stage lung cancer eventually stopped therapy antidepressant partly felt guilty partly therapist changing job past therapist done never seen therapist month sure everyone know dumpster fire year honest high hope year actually part time job payed fairly well plan take ged later year start community college fall relapsed depressive state every time not meet parent expectation get punished phone line know pay phone working towards gotten job spring thing pay first wifi getting cut ultimately affect brother best handle shit not huge deal always way really connection friend moved around lot friend different country hard make friend general value connection outside world thing keep sane friend distracting music youtube want life better want leave toxic environment not seem likely not afford therapy parent insurance not anymore look like not meeting goal year not get ged end month parent said remove wifi even would still said would keeping need study test mind b community college brother c still high school need wifi feel like take one step forward five step back life home not change maybe suicide would make better brother c still chance graduate high school b actually graduated high school still chance find something want dad would stop pressuring joining military hand failed multiple time trying finish school continue push back goal not get depressed already started plan going want brother better life parent never change maybe died would better parent financially maybe would finally change treat brother better chance life anyway omitted lot detail gist amp xb tl dr toxic home environment brother struggling killed would probably make life better brother might actually succeed life | suicide |
helpi not eaten slept day writing phone lying floor bathroom spent morning vomiting cutting cut deep see vein want pain stop one call someone please talk | suicide |
friend need help hey friend make tiktok school project need view get bonus mark would mean alot could go watch cringy kind stupid funny something macbeth username jakes user thanks watch | non-suicide |
think sexually harassed someone hit lowest low going try keep short possible american gay male last december went christmas frat party struck conversation guy attracted shot shit thought cute gave flirty eye flirty energy returned fun back forth going became handsier started brushing arm putting hand shoulder eventually decided show play revealed sexual orientation replied cool man asked gay curious even little laughed said straight not believe thought straight presenting raised strongly catholic told piety earlier whatever case may orientation respected straight stopped hooked good thing going not stop flirting said many time interesting funny took sign alright asked several time teasing way actually straight not throughout night assured not seem express discomfort distaste towards flirtiness continued one point put arm around waist held arm rubbed thumb kissed shoulder put head shoulder walked home live general direction went inside said glad met friend left go inside house open bottle powerade drunk lay bed guy friend call make sure made home one piece call guy friend tell overstepped line coming onto guy maintained straight probably made uncomfortable heart sank agreed cried sleep night woke next day text message asking fine meme guy apologized action said issue good night invited small get together mid week hosting since normal friend several thing worried sick felt coerced uncomfortable felt could freely express touchy feely flirtation sexual harassment least sexual assault know heterosexual standard mean men harder time openly sharing emotion especially one related sexual violence good natured guy might wanted avoid starting scene not want hurt not know walked away night thinking experienced night positively could possibility saw situation one way others saw completely different saw okay actively enjoying phone call friend anxious thought making second guess perception believed returning flirt heterosexual claim may negated line denying claim straight continuing flirt wrong disrespectful going far take full responsibility scared exposed friend disappointed night worried share version event think worried guy not enjoy much thought expose reading girl account sexual abuse come forward start abuser flirting putting hand around waist something kind despite clear discomfort distress victim build abuser forcing sexually onto victim not force guy not make actual move not want get punched put hand around waist flirted etc like abuser start not express discomfort distress thought positive feedback actually could misread situation not want like abuser not help feeling like one hurting badly | suicide |
day come returni never knew grew everyone dream become lawyer police officer doctor etc not ever wanted something work self able live life term god gave oppertunity threw away greed started six year ago year finnished high school hard time finding job normal newly graduated high school kid without connection family also summer house always went summer never really oppertunity get job experience prior would certainly helped resume close friend started life got decent job parent etc got really isolated sitting home pretty much nothing got really stressed knowing one friend not progress life started get depressed pressure family friend find something kept building clue whatsoever wanted life thing got pretty bad one night everything changed growing used spend free time playing competetive video game world warcraft arena counter strike league legend name good one day browsing internet stumbled upon something interesting started sport betting mostly fun make match interesting besides playing video game two big hobby mine soccer basketball hence got sport betting anyways one day browsing site used place bet noticed introduced esports saw lot counter strike match popping live section course got interested started observing odds moved round round safe say bookie charge clue one weekened turned got limited banned site wining surreal never bank account anxiety felt disapeard instant christmas eve told family god damn best feeling ever question money save maybe use downpayment apartment pursue dream life bos started reading stock market like serious research pretty much hr day month reading stock etc finally decided enter market started well profited first buy sell learned something not matter much read end experience matter upcoming month lost started experience depression like not want tell family still live every day like fine oh man draining whenever parent working lay bed day could not move home got pretented normal not suicidal time kind paralyzed lack motivation couple month noticed another big counter strike tournament start time esport still small maybe big tournament broadcasted match every month today pretty much different league going every day big tournament every week anyways decided make new gambling account mom name could try luck time started made close week time got limited every day kept making new account dad sibling name managed last entire tournament like last time anxiety disapeard started kind believe god actually exists may heard prayer got another chance pursure dream month lost money previously learned lot found strategy pretty much bullet proof entered stock market found immediate success made k first year fulltime trader still lived home without expense money kept going bankroll couple year net worth greed took year ago friend moved parent home seriously started life might richest one moneywise nothing else still lived home parent really wanted move also start life knew could keep making good money maybe eventually start business not problem bank eye still worth nothing income tax register mean could not take loan would pay one apartment looking would hurt bankroll lot would not feel comfortable place paying everything etc bankroll not much safety net thing went bad got greedy decided really wanted get place within next month needed take bigger risk bought share mining company waited month news waiting kept getin delayed decided sell invest medical company recieve big news week made big investment news finally came unfortnately bad like real bad ceo company lying everyone stock dropped instant meanwhile mining company invested went got extremely tilted kept making dumb decision dumb decision month left withrew bank put gambling site saw nothing black could bet soccer game never heard two team kept till reading might like still early money reason kill self left trading time used lend money mom normal stuff always paid back etc nothing special right greediness took took considerable loan fund investment outside stockmarket not even mind threw away last deep one knew started ask friend family loan try make least could pay mom back unfortunately kept losing sometimes would win lot close making lost every time loan family friend kept piling total debt mom k sister k friend k friend k friend k total k point bad like suicidal thought bad going sound real crazy true went bridge near home serious break middle night started screaming god cu desperate lol not know went railing ready jump actually fell wind suddenly urge felt kill self compeltely gone kind landed felt nothing couple minute went home took last somehow hr later turned k k turned k day later k couple day later explanation happened keep mind bet not something edge random game baerly knew team pure luck thought self well time stop might not able cover whole debt pay back friend sister mom find job pay back within year started making deposit hr got message saying needed provide bank statement prove playing account unfortunately already told limited account made new one friend family usually would deposit money account person personal information used not time made deposit bank account think already knew asked information basically not able withdraw money untill point seriously thought god falling bridge suddenly turning k day pure luck happened instead felt like toying suicidal thought came back decided tell mom everything finally came clean felt insanely good decided pay debt sister friend take entire debt self sent k pay friend think money sure hell not pay debt started gambling not even explain came clean god sake got nd chance gambled away not try recover took even loan friend total debt something like mom k sister k friend k friend k friend k friend k friend k total k way mom destroyed already first time told telling came clean abuse course not intention happened regardless even end shame feel towards friend already killing inside way not fuck life fucked mom life basically stealing k not mention two friend owe k k love family friend like would given day take bullet guy stay away gambling even win might come day get depressed something trust not want associated gambling way not mentally might end like many others regret lof thing wondering happen mom not beeing able watch two year old nephew grow hardest part shame simply much good luck everyone | suicide |
lonely hell yr old male want internet friend make lack friend real life anyone depressed verge suicide could use friend right preferably female | non-suicide |
give subreddit man gotten hot many subreddits yet not seem unpredictable frustrating story made using hour life got ppvotes not say goddam word bot block post post cringy joke post hot usually still not get hot got subreddit ppvotes might retire karma whore subreddit bvrvbrhvnhbgtnhtnhb hytbhy tbhythbhntrhbhitibnhub | non-suicide |
yo really annoying yesterday not open snapchat hour today hour far flirtatious sometimes not respond super annoying | non-suicide |
way feel like belong somewhere getting lonely might help not know worth trying | non-suicide |
anyone else play minecraft among u popular yet get ha ha funny point | non-suicide |
going say goodbye family weekendthats going feel sorry little brother know okay | suicide |
relationship break person thought one bit happiness life majorly suicidal anyone else feeling bad want chat finding partner cyber cheating compulsive liar gambler not person thought year hope desire life not want live scared die even though think death would spare future pain not know people life thing painfully depressed anxious lonely anyone else feel crap want talk feel free message like thanks reading | suicide |
earth not sphere neither flat actually earth computer simulation run superior call alien capable run mean interact turn using planet cricket ball reason earth spin bowled frequently bat hit earth experience force like call earthquake thankfully simulation managed get strong magnetic field resulted formation atmosphere able survive hit | non-suicide |
goodbye maybei cut self yesterday razer nothing else went back bed hoping would die sleep not worrying anything obviously failed tried time none ever worked failure not even kill like god want live like obsolete failure going try tonight hopefully work goodbye fuck life fuck | suicide |
tell mom think killing tell mom think killing next step tell best worst case scenario already therapy taking med nothing getting better even anything besides therapy med would help not know feel like suicide inevitable | suicide |
become god powerful enough kill god mastered reddit tiktoc instagram managing absorb best part keaping cringe locked cage smite rival thing holding back extreme sleep deprivation dwindling monster supply | non-suicide |
watcha going piss cum ten year old said call duty match | non-suicide |
never not anymore tired living trauma abuse not take another day badly want sleep drift away never live another day hell want suffer done abused ruined life put much pain never not deserve live happy | suicide |
dm hornie quick creep distracted everyone else run away | non-suicide |
hey day bro | non-suicide |
think od tonighti know many people going think posting attention welp think going od tonight extra strength acetaminophen bed right already tried woke alive tried everything someone family raped mom dismissed mental issue went far force lie psychiatrist not get exact diagnostic told lock away call crazy drop college going french class mom going ask home not school dad died died hate life not anyone like really one talk person matter year old sister stopped replying text month ago therapist keep telling not suicidal not actually help argument mom not talk month not talk brother year person make not want sister sad right want od know maybe future something not fight anymore want hug want dad want someone tell everything going okay light forcing stay slowing dying scary not want stay anymore hospitalized two time already pls tell something scared pls not tell call go hug mom not | suicide |
month left teenager th birthday mid late october terrible advice teen spend last adolescence old man soon scared | non-suicide |
not plan kill not see bad ideaso bit background male year old past month completely lost interest everything used enjoy well college computer science major enjoyed like said not see interest either career prospect pretty much null life become boring chore tired dealing lot people love care one life toxic know would upset commit suicide think stupid realize not need life really think died would get within year also not worry harming terrified half time would not want leave mess anyone clean would choose disappear without trace given option one would put harm way trying rescue not even sure posting guess maybe trying see reason continue alive help not bothered seeking treatment not see going fix anything probably depression year ruined many thing already going back work feel free post ask question back later answer question | suicide |
need someone spend last moment lifei not endure pain anymore life never get better not deserve good thing life also not want suffer forever | suicide |
suicide tattoosi not sleep not eat hand shaking turned got extensively large tattoo torso thinking cool dj influenced people around really accepting amp felt good around not realise time people around temporary tattoo not graduated straight got faculty law university started even though tattoo not visible wear top fatalistic pressure people around got inside head keep eating brain cell see would think definitely think junkie criminal single minded life wanted great thing tattoo absolute error not understand past self keep scrolling chat parent cry repeating loud asked stigmatised thinking cool hate body hate tattoo feel dissociated way getting better vanish body | suicide |
not anymoreto people life look easy quit job money insurance live mom ashamed enrolled nice college not done work since spring break look like easy life hate depressed since kid learned hide really well four year clean may every day think dropping everything go buy heroin die not want die terrified killing not live head anymore every thing every thing say followed loud intrusive voice telling fat stupid lazy burden stopped talking one friend sitting couch garage every waking moment smoking drinking sleep hour day clearly depressed need help mean getting chronic pain every day hurt not take painkiller addiction not know wanted say someone barely get without family getting enraged react every problem anger whether mental physical feel like burden everyone would better without | suicide |
not wait two yearsthere fucking way going make two year two year start transitioning trans way living long | suicide |
want bad fucking bad fuck saw stupid post someone complaining woman taking everything seriously shit said woman first world country good made mistake responding post explained view etc wanted use personal experience argument know risky really wanted op try understand u better sexually assaulted told story boy joked school said something along line lost virginity kindergarten said well op responded story saying not take seriously move life thing like saying guy joke guy difference two usually not joking someone personal experience not even know say expecting something offensive come back nothing like not know hurt much hear someone say say joke want cry fuck even bring fault | non-suicide |
painless way km considering sleeping pill input would help thanks | suicide |
help pointless depressed long time not sure hospital diagnosed mdd ended six year not attempted suicide always considered looking bridge balcony see survive started grade eleven hurt hardest summer started cutting grade considering suicide ended hospital take grade thirteen lost much time fell behind class social worker taking prozac actively none helping dragging attended college changed major twice spent one year one failed another spent two year could not take anymore not affecting mentally hurting physically immune system compromised stress felt useless felt helpless must admit two counselor taking medication regularly quit medication not helping spending time bed quit eating food day starving came major took another one felt better good gpa first still counselor stopped medication together said earlier pretty confident come second year decided not need counselor anymore closed case later year started struggling tired spent sometimes sixteen hour school trying get thing done failed many time beginning third year gave came program parent hospitalization kept saying okay not performing well not wanted perform well least one thing life complete college probably get good co op opportunity six year square one constantly thinking suicide feeling path forward done hanging time struggled told friend lost close friend still best friend another close friend not bother telling feel everyday stayed know story oh forgot mention obvious not girlfriend relationship tried time people failed stopped perusing relationship planning suicide hate going back hospital shitty psychiatrist not know succeed much coward | suicide |
going try tonighti not go refusing let another year fuck mind end | suicide |
fucking bored every day come home absolutely fucking nothing supposed stay sober shit numbing mf brain insane | non-suicide |
friend put discord server not know copypasta not read not school thing perents force go place thing called demon shove boring thing head watch grow without sense imagination soul perpose life watch little child suffer | non-suicide |
something clicked meim hurting brain hardwired differently ultimately not change nothing remove equation | suicide |
ending lifei decided bleach way going drink soon goodbye | suicide |
not want live lifethis maybe ridiculous reason want end life transgender would want live girl know would fooling never real girl never look feminine girl look not able love someone boy happy thing boy not look body feel without feeling sad many probably not understand really hurt not want live life | suicide |
not make money tourette srsly wtf point people not payin blink crap | non-suicide |
believed god would make suicide easier harder given might go hell | suicide |
feel worthless feel like anything problem never anything worthwhile not want die not want exist not know difference not know | non-suicide |
current want want nerd movie want sleep want cuddle listen leave door open want tell people love want pet cat want play game | non-suicide |
anyone want play truth dare smth pretty bored gay dm nice day everyone | non-suicide |
go againi single day amazing kid divorce reason not dead depressed year counseling ptsd not combat related time year think trauma breakup marriage absolutely lose nd year happened begin not able make work get kid school get ready drive sometimes not make inside not stay day last year almost month straight course money compound issue today one day not make inside woke tired angry sweet little girl not want put jean flipped shit yelled got pant wanted felt like piece shit talked okay basically woke made cry going deal weighing not deserve try really hard get angry mom supposed kid paper get weekwnds chose child kid course take kid need keep alive offer help hard way go brain break not help kid make angry try hard taking court child support accountability long drawn money lawyer not really know rambling sorry realize people end honestly not going want want gone not feel pain joy life kid smile mainly lile said thing keeping alive great family wonderful girlfriend lost lost id okay going sleep car crash something explainable something kid say daddy not kill honest truth almost screwed brain drug youth seems fault really want go know going sound like esoteric bullshit really think something influencing thought not world not think demon not religious fucked around supernatural lot think may something feel could crazy though definitely crazy | suicide |
not know got perfect score papa bakeria road getting sticker became whole lot easier | non-suicide |
sorry posting twice need distracted yeah close relapsing not relapse typing please ask random question tell day whatever much appreciated want keep think day streak | non-suicide |
getting suicidal trigger scaredso started serious suicidal thought today new twist not occur since med taking care stayed bed pm today depression crap long time first time actually gone far looking would happen took overdose anti anxiety stuff mixed alcohol started thinking relieving would never work never deal crap going deal sudden possibility also gotten impulse not stop thinking bashing head table actually started hitting head morning feel insane typing managed hold back never cut starved seriously serious suicidal tendency even worst throe depression week gone line scared | suicide |
tough joba year ago left good tough job oilfield tough mean hour shift lot heavy manual labor take lot ibuprofen year half body toughened great shape getting burnt crew got split left float crew crew saved ton money felt like position leave find something better also fudge cdl hour could led losing cdl stressing soon quit realized huge mistake spiraled depression attempted hang not succeed coronavirus happened laid bunch people could not go back anyways non oilfield job not see succeeding chance might able get back oilfield still connection shape mental health not good not want go back mess go pain getting kind shape back weak hurt bad going commit today know hurt lot people | suicide |
sorry sorry human piece trash make mistake egoistic not live done useless hurting closest people life dissapointment not world not go anymore not recently even forgot trully happy happy life hope hope hope better life hope happy hope make dream come true hope even find someone love point living not born die right even care | suicide |
school closed middle math class got notification leave schoo live estonia school | non-suicide |
drank lot took several sleeping pillsi known lot people attempted something felt regret called someone got help feel relief hopefully not wake ever not deal shithole life losing friend reason love life randomly falling love job idea would ever want not miserable not deal anymore pain not read another redditor saying happened okay last one probably final joke ever dome laugh would nice needed place say goodbye hopefully | suicide |
people saying float like butterfly sting like bee nah homie float like butterfly sting like butterfly | non-suicide |
awarding first positive comment write something positive not joke comment il give free award | non-suicide |