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even bother back september almost ended life not though keep thinking mistake not got bullied year never really friend besides mom family not even acknowledge existence let alone family tried month make friend always find looking like fool female crush whenever talk give one word answer act uninterested try make freinds week two never talk glad never drank used drug would probability lose control end life everyday drink look tempting make forget pain live day hiding feeling get home feel like worst thing planet time go sleep near tear wake morning feel like physical embodiment pain cycle continues want stop want give | suicide |
people not belong sub little rant also kind pissed people sub trying help not actually helping making worse mean made multiple post life sick etc told asshole decided say get grip life excuse wtf not young people done fucking life couple week ago kid struggling really bad saying like young get grip stop whining making thing much worse person made post not belong sub | suicide |
not surei hour left kill | suicide |
open letter whoever knocked door pm please go away money want sleep going murder least not make hurt | non-suicide |
good way kill yourselfive looking option nothing seems easy getting gun hard thing prescription drug could always hang slit wrist not want something super painful suggestion | suicide |
slit throat dayi not fucking wait someday not wait caring parent find dead grotesque ugly body one going fucking fix going come | suicide |
going get job little back story friend dad friend shui place hate shui love work interview weekend first ever job guy advice would appreciate | non-suicide |
feel like soul destroyedhi everyone struggled major depression anxiety since age still affect life every aspect two year ago boyfriend die year abusive relationship past six month year lost grandfather grandmother best friend friend small kid not available anymore quit two job really loved currently verbally emotionally abusive relationship escalated physical violence recently one time though feel overreact small thing get angry not even know anymore today mom usually lifeline got fed constantly complaining upset flipped fuck threw shit around house screamed went batshit crazy numb time much pain whole life imploding feel like lost truly genuinely want die want hell life destroyed soul not feel like person anymore feel bad leaving family truly think peace without constant bullshit living not support know boyfriend not really care think plan one last weekend weekend favorite lakehouse spot one last sunday dinner family middle night overdose deceased boyfriend grave worker find morning not decayed parent not find already begun goodbye note made list certain thing id like funeral feel sad little girl dream nurse wife mother activist pet adopter homeowner feel sad brain caused made worse shitty life choice hospitalized ideation therapy not worked tried many med make head spin thank reading wall text not know else else vent like without someone calling fucking ambulance anyone belief prayer please pray soul | suicide |
many people done many fucked thing not even tell real something paranoid mind made yesterday bus driver drove straight past tried blame said bus stop not getting bus told talking shit refused let buy ticket went sat told going get police come get told annoyed differently abled tried drive past reason kick bus could suck ball stuff not happen normal people everytime get relationship girl fucked thing like hit try stop talking friend would not let shit slide day emotional scar still child parent abandoned sexually abused time teacher horrible health condition made school terrible refused go even went college tutor called front whole class problem relating learning difficulty ex ruined whole bunch coursework cheated told everyone abusing reason not killed yet undeniable potential girlfriend not take though would never tell not want cause suffering going every time defy odds dig hole someone kick back would not even take seriously tried get help mental health mentally unwell work even go house not really choice inevitable tried hang week ago feel like mixture stand fast pas lie upside blood go head not sure dead alive existential crisis sometimes fantasise girlfriend killing nice face like model would not scary way would pretty messed scary knowing consequence reality fantasy different thing though guess wish happened control maybe like killing self punishment kind way wish people understood life belongs true right right end people part immature outlook death think want go afterlife whatever accept nothingness sound peaceful used bother allot around wish death still disturbing know supposed religion popular guess going go play chess might find testicle not join hope brain impaired enough not convincing anyone probably deleting incase | suicide |
yesterday learned press ctrl enter instead clicking post also know press save post h hide | non-suicide |
voice making suicidali bullied high school every single day problem not fix voice sound like blocked nose talk pretty much stopped talking made depressed fat sevre anxiety depression made fail many exam school made gain weight try calling phone voice sound shit always mumbling talk thousand thing mind want say not physically say finished high school last thursday pretty much alone well alone single whole life last week seem like alone trying kill tried call gp yesterday last second anxiety attack quickly ended call dad hospital week mum go every single day everything feel overwhelming not know hell supposed guy not hear next week guess gone | suicide |
swear going throw pm outside sprint right feel sick thsi not good | non-suicide |
dad tasked driving expensive object little know race drift feel bad whoever getting | non-suicide |
please help diagnosed adhd anxiety depression doctor not gotten medication yet many people similar issue taken care see therapist th get medication far nothing th grade taking algebra fail unit exam determine drop go th grade math study hard lot result not remember much fail exam would mean future education would mess middle school graduation highschool diploma college scared breakdown right not know answer thank reading | non-suicide |
struggling commit suicide not access go much struggling end life not know method quickest not get access need seek death one solid scientific reason life not want live not sad really happy worried parent find | suicide |
uhh messing around omegal pretty sure saw child x scared anyone else relate | non-suicide |
hi everyoneso felt declining fairly quickly past month alcohol seems winning battle drinking daily year tried many time quit hell could not even quit rolling jeep drunk people inside received probation cheated system month figured day going test not drink pm night anyhow thing work breaking probably going laid soon wife kid love new lifestyle making k plus last year k year guy long get laid unemployment like wk not even pay rent saving drink away spare money not know lose job not heart tell constantly skip anything not absolutley half life heard yr old daughter tell friend wish dad would stuff like day yeah pretty much crushed soul older kid boy girl pretty much ignore feel like cheated father physically growing never anything either ever wife seems happy not sex month used every day almost even year marriage month ago planned carry customised glock cal pistol time cool gun put thousand dollar worth upgrade day get laid maybe sooner going go bar shot bullit frontier whiskey driving favorite overlook going put car drive pull trigger anyhow made far thanks reading year guy going check | suicide |
not stop thinking ending life story added really one talk lot people effected two best friend killed although feel incredibly selfish wanted end life not tell others selfish really know badly effect others point get not priority anybodys life boyfriend broke fuck everything good live life filled misery due overthinking entire year suicidal tried everything try cope unbearable depression anxiety year dealt somewhat bearable diagnosis depression anxiety tried different kind therapy know take time complete waste time even positive outlook medicine month thing helped anger completely making numb used student failing class truly not see point anything die right either kill get killed nothing matter end not even thing used make happy not make happy anymore live life meaning drive create meaning believe life not maybe soul find meaning somewhere universe earth meaning find drunk night rid fear course scared dying wow not single point living anymore prolong inevitable trying vent place advice surely help | suicide |
favor could send spotify playlist would swag would funky fresh would badass cool kid pog fr trying hear new music like literally every genre feel free send anything | non-suicide |
like one day wake reddit gone | non-suicide |
facebook ruining family recently whole covid thing parent pretty calm august mom read facebook covid false also said vaccine way government implant chip body discussed got mad started saying never listen day got letter saying get appointmenr year old baby brother stop either getting ir soreading covid mom said facebook shut anyways fast forward yesterday said illuminatis going control world everything lie | non-suicide |
life going sucki choice right tell parent not want go college make life completely miserable not afford move turn go college drop anyway left student loan debt save pain kill third option way better actually might hard accomplish least not suffer consequence since dead definitely going day everyone gone | suicide |
get better put work bullshit try stop killing fucking selfish people see person suffers enough want die every day first thought try bullshit prolonging suffering age acceptable kill pathetic failure human acceptable age people would rather live shit life solely not inconvenience feeling kind bad hear died depressed unemployed mentally ill ugly fuck virgin never relationship hey keep pushing year behind everyone else basic fucking human experience far sure work keep trying hahahaha well fuck fucking tired failing tired feeling bad time hope get bravery end life end year planned many time head already | suicide |
finally almost never hear bad year ever swear fucking god annoying | non-suicide |
hey bud know big essay due next week one scrolling reddit instead working yeah one go finish reward minecraft star war | non-suicide |
today dayi finish life today hanging eat french fry last meal kill beacuse live shitty world shitty country not say get help beacuse not get help not first world european asian country life give shit wish luck fail miserably make pathetic show | suicide |
really need help trying drive insanity kill easier want not eat day meanwhile taking mg caffeine equivalent can coke caffeine bunch risky thing drug totally insane need help think go insane ultimately die | suicide |
mfw refreshing new waiting something interesting bored nothing interesting posted everyone else bored | non-suicide |
taking geometry right struggling wondering guy advice tip kill geometric monster | non-suicide |
fat yo neet future not see point going nobody help scared help feel completely worthless time keep telling turn thing around ok turn thing around would still live home still friend still real future not kill still probably fucking brace multiple year fuck supposed find happiness whenever definition loser not get wrong absolutely terrified killing dying end miserable existence | suicide |
see mother put death see mother die | non-suicide |
school sucksit pain go school anxiety gotten worse around people make anxious people avoid friend not even sure want around not smart failure see kid getting hundred stuck feel like judged every step take hate group project always left stopped carering sick whole thing wish could end none care would think cried would done broke stayed quiet staring like weird person not want go | suicide |
suicidal mark date give year live live everyday goal mind one year live think bucket list not thing hate life would feel doctor told today | suicide |
alpha move know alpha male thing piss right toilet pee make sound ultimate stelh move change mind | non-suicide |
tried experienced lost war not looking support not want waste anyone else time want write word say goodbye fighting life fought year enemy severe depression extreme sleep issue introversion awkwardness supported opposition plan join military though fight end casualty live fear death also lost people time two close friend person ever actually raised love grandpa fought year enemy taliban insurgent radical national total spent month overseas winner casualty countless went still u stay strong fallen fought year got enemy vast surrounded casualty finally though not war still go boot manage got one write letter serve letter public servant notified remains funeral unattended government service finally lie rest finally meet peace | suicide |
shrek law kind shrek onion onion cry shrek cry | non-suicide |
need friend right someone talk toi want feel home want feel comfort want feel safe skin scared death know yet not want keep living world take walk occasionally listen music feel warmth sun cool breeze skin keep grounded world not last never last come back reality find nightmare longer wait sleep tried turn friend even family one listening one hears cry please know trying need someone know trying even not seem like even not enough trying terrified not even trust want find purpose find meaning not easy hard breathe need know someone hears someone not alone please | suicide |
today bad today hung myslef twice right not breath correctly head pounding right | non-suicide |
interview dream job today anyone tip interview dream place work today k lockdown interview team job place reopens public wave bristol inland surfing lake work front house restocking shop cleaning making coffee bit waitressing stuff like excited bit nervous want get job much interview couple hour anyone tip really would appreciate | non-suicide |
ok one responded post last nightso anywho next saturday dad earlier week decided complete dick want ac run hotter physically handle seriously temperature start sweating sitting computer get dizzy feel like complete shit week straight broke unable support also diabetic surgery year ago remove rds right lung recovering alcoholic not sleep well alone isolated due much social anxiety constantly stressed ready kill ndad damage already done nothing left give not fake shit anymore done | suicide |
fantasize suicide not richim not poor truly believe deserve wealth least much certain people rich not decided method time window time urge might come sooner plan become rich fails not become truly desperate life literally riding single idea | suicide |
matter much money not escape live nice place would say family rich although suicidal thought cut feel selfish good friend live good place ok family still feel way ugh | suicide |
alright listen guy plan plan step buy water bed step buy tadpole step put th step frog bed | non-suicide |
family falling apartmy husband came gender dysphoria anniversary not even first person told two child together adore father decided not want transition since parent sibling would not supportive friend not supportive either also not want kid lose father ever since finding spiraling deeper depression scared could fall asleep not wake would gladly take option husband keep telling selfish would hurt kid keep trying not think way hurting much pain physical feel like not breath whenever eat throw feel nauseous digested terrified future look like family not know hold long enough see | suicide |
honestly feel really hopeless not think actually sometimes feel like would easier junior chemsitry major honestly feel like wasted life getting college soon future feel bleak done absolutely research internship trying apply internship right honestly not getting anywhere lack recommendation feel like leave college go downhill also limited area living mother breast cancer not leave everything feel awful right not think could actually go family not mean not think | suicide |
going fix future since alot police v black racism recent year going balance like thanos said shoot white help black good person | non-suicide |
spent minute wandering around room touching surface could not find glass not want miss accidentally found downstairs living room table nice also dyed hair not really see | non-suicide |
getting worseim main account mostly not give fuck anymore suicidal thought getting worse much gone beyond thought planning recently put seroquil bipolar depression ativan ptsd anxiety feel like gotten worse not better experienced much trauma feel like normal person want | suicide |
got bread like batter opps dust call elon musk fell love choppy sound waka flocka flame | non-suicide |
sex drive add salt injuryover | suicide |
math making sleepy put sleep | non-suicide |
everything gone shitive dealing disease two year recently started getting dehabilitating headache every day think corona see doctor think must shitty luck world get addition depression ptsd past six year therapist called today phone consultation could tell voice wanted send hospital partially lied said little suicidal hope therapy help mom yelled today stop lazy graduate school hate university parent manipulated staying dad barged said wrong started cry said wanted die kill left closed door fuck hate life existence button die peacefully | suicide |
might fuck around scarifice memtal health god piece garlic breaf fucking love garlic breaf wish breaf evenrr existed | non-suicide |
final goodbye b r thank everyone thread not post given temporary amount hope past also made feel le alone not ever give life get easier time pass unfortunately tonight not anymore not trying get pity either want try amp help people suffering go long road crazy much changed past couple year high amp low throughout life past couple year worst ever experienced accept whatever afterlife offer one not anymore made decision year therapy medication hospital admission came conclusion not get better everyone potential purpose earth not ever give nice everyone never know going mind live everyday fullest dark place pas eventually get sorry goodbye see one day | suicide |
decided stay awake starting online learning holiday season ended original plan go sleep wake not go sleep another way fix sleep schedule | non-suicide |
day recommending song bois um may may not forgotten yesterday multiple song gotye feat kimbra somebody used know remember song popular totally forgot song existed earlier today still hit hard ellie goulding feat juice wrld hate well not say saw collab coming little pop usually like still good bandlez feat armanni reign heretic not know found know love much someone recommend music like goddamn zero leave light underrated oh lord man incredible | non-suicide |
trying not worry fellow club membersso nd year m student c getting completely overwhelmed workload started getting incredibly low score midterm assignment stress research trying get phd program starting feel like life downhill every time well one thing something else fail kid everyone thought smart going well life talk potential wasted might well end right also board member club undergrad hobby right year younger feel like telling going dealing would inappropriate given age difference trying not worry feel like starting catch tl dr grad school make feel like failure life trying not let bunch year old know want die | suicide |
desperate pathetic hopei keep hoping sharp pain chest heart attack not figure end never | suicide |
today th birthday celebrate going kill tired hate everything mind not stop screaming not shut worthless stupid bad thing not feel anything guilt numbness loud people avoided called weird long remember not friend left real life sabotage relationship avoid feeling vulnerable tourette bdd ocpd really severe adhd grown kleptomania relatively recently not think anything good underneath shittiness accumulated year dropped high school could not handle everybody else able left mormon church became atheist could not live expectation know smart somehow make feel worse totally dysfunctional smart people supposed good thing not make anything idiot way head feel lazy stupid wanted career astronomy stellar spectroscopy particular history taught anything would not able succeed anything else matter hard tried math one thing enjoy anymore not even good not stand feeling empty panicky time controlling anxious remorseless asshole started taking wellbutrin mg last depressive episode september helped way prozac made even anxious cymbalta made suicidal still depressed wellbutrin much le emotion dampened not totally gone like felt much better guess since depression make exhausted numb need dopamine norepinephrine serotonin level generally fine messing fuck everything wellbutrins lost effectiveness though far know mg maximum dose not know else fix hated life remember hating preschool not think meant live long giving natural selection hand exhausted not tell whether not convoluted read probably sorry | suicide |
said dry wtf mean texting girl like fun least thought said not know joke around not dry kind struck surprise thought fun time mean yeah little formal text shy outside joke around not know probably overthinking told friend said try le formal joking funny liked little flirty thing not know know either way interpreted calling dry calling dry texter basic saying kind boring talk feel little bad | non-suicide |
kid roadblockso living clinical depression since somewhere medication combination not psychiatric ward twice closed ward suicide attempt late last year open ward ect treatment electrocshock active day feel possible cognitive therapy neurotherapy exercise regiment follow day feel possible not want accused doctor depression stem lack exercise yo cm kg pretty much every flavor month psychiatric treatment go back another series ect soon therapist give go completed tried everything sure new medication year trying kind lost faith sorry wall text issue one roadblock not slitting radial artery wrist elbow year old son strong roadblock young atm understand isolate mancave hope get much better time friend understand happening dad weird feel like working towards clock atm completing ect normal refresh every nd month feel like last chance maintaining roadblock really needed get reading managed hope manage create great day | suicide |
favorite band favorite band mine nirvana | non-suicide |
need get something chest feedback start shitty life basically born without bat yea small rare disease k not seem rare know tho baby born like either gender swapped common happen instance not going much detail going say baseball bat know r teenager not even feel comfortable talking girl girl met always say size matter not want man not pleasure fucking problem probably not even kid even pleasure anyone scared future dad boy brother not even help bloodline brother would want live without scared future sorry mod needed get chest tried keep lot personal info not mark serious not even serious want life girl not judge love not want something bargain people fuck everyone story get chest want feedback | non-suicide |
want kill feel like way official started living sleep justified pretty stupid stuff like drinking broke abusing trust friend family etc idea self administered death horizon not always necessarily felt suicidal feel like might chosen like self fulfilling prophecy deep deep seated inferiority complex make difficult impossible acquiesce helped taught anything not sought medical diagnosis method treatment told anyone feel drink sleep every night night time hour hardest weed not work anymore not drink want kill guess tired putting brave face good god tired not imagine future like capable expressing tried believe exists right really want end not want live anger hate like said tried nothing idea would suggest someone hate themself much not want get better shirks anything might remedial not booze weed shuns idea come external source high school went doctor told trouble finding reason get bed morning told anything long something sort natural desire continue living would surely reawaken bullshit like went counselling year later cunt told thing since done absolutely nothing absolute bare minimum person every conceivable way anyways want know think long not anything live trans make thing harder easier | suicide |
late sudden fascination gymnastics around year old not want crazy gymnastics basic stuff front back flip friend trampoline never enough wanted old start could try would way hard | non-suicide |
not know last yearm u resident living ulcerative colitis overwhelming nightmare president combined growing possibility losing healthcare terrifies oh fucking election year due colonoscopy year think please let cancer not stand living country nearly half population want kill healthcare system enables afford medication keep alive not feel like anyone really understands painful anxiety really honestly not bothered early death point not watch world get even fucked day not going kill tonight not know ever kill would gladly go nearest state right die law book get terminal diagnosis need help | suicide |
know know know know rd time posting wanted know day guy | non-suicide |
god never answer prayersi stop trying false hope attempt nothing often fantasize never waking next day even disappointment next morning feel empty thought college would better high school always wrong | suicide |
basically wrote something not lnow give explanation someone asks basically depressed state certain situation word stuck head wrote present sorry english not know certain thing would translate sun burn deserve remain end time flesh left bone rise knowing destiny fulfilled low key think kind cringe reading knowing post anyways lol suggestion always welcome since not know change fulfilled since seems bit wrong | non-suicide |
want sleepi want sleep ever want hang would overdosing sleeping pill work better | suicide |
feel emptyi peaked high school nothing college mean graduated skipped ton class got homework layed around phone time not really make friend nobody come need something even parent barely like ever ever ever want lie scroll zone want go sleep not wake need fucking intervention want fucking go hospital fix want lobotomy want drown | suicide |
mom cooking lasagna yey | non-suicide |
get someone torso yes real torso pretty much dead person without arm leg head little dollar worth good bit far foot | non-suicide |
fuck want die badbut not ball end | suicide |
tiredi feel guilty everyday escaped abusive mother abusive relationship still think killing everyday everyday nothing even wrong still creep best medication gotten thinking could kill instead bf lovely family wonderful feel like fuck direction never expected alive long want goal entire childhood kill turned not handle day day life not think cut grateful sub reddit feel horrible talk bf not guilt berate tell hurt tried asking dad not want kill everyday adult left read not know sad sound cat keeping alive year died month ago gone crush soul getting registered eso baby feel lost | suicide |
boyfriend fucking hate life falling aparti know sound fucking trivial going oh boyfriend hate suck little bitch people dying like reality suck like issue life tiny blip sea bullshit going looking barrel recession mom owns small business likely suffer consequence barely made alive lucky enough semi ok month really start hitting hard young ish remember incredibly hellish fucking terrified live mom never good realtionship stick home together toxic environment try stay way sight keep screaming yelling minimum not seen boyfriend month quarantine mentally checked peaced fuck week mark bad case whiplash went incredibly kind loving cold uncaring year awesome relationship gone reversed week biggest support best friend feel like rug pulled cruel trick different person nearly tangible wall animosity towards trying carry relationship finish line keep thinking make end quarantine ok know mentally checked stress everything power carry goddamn need supported voice head tell lucky still even feel like worthless fucking human greatful whatever attention throw way shut mouth take not really deserve whole yard anyways feel like kind cosmic punishment shitty person not know exactly make shitty person feel bone pathetic trying reach friend keep busy keep preoccupied dealing personal shit storm home want conversation play game watch movie netflix party not want feel isolated feel like giant gaping hole chest like drowning everytime scream help end swallowing water | suicide |
running shoe thing boy confirm explain school sent message saying need bring running g shoe tomorrow yesterday saw guy claim left called running shoe home wtf run walk sprint jump fly stab kill younglings shoe everyday attend wedding crap fancy brown black shoe | non-suicide |
currently fighting urge steal chris beer distract want cry | non-suicide |
ah jeez ok literally not know posting happy really well atm weird randomly different time day get like sudden urge want kill not feel suicidal good still getting urge want act think impulsively lot time act impulsive decision scared one day urge might become impulsive decision could actually not sure make since | suicide |
starting discord cult call cat cult goal beat cult anyone interested joining add discord white cat plus need help bot | non-suicide |
please not readi think final draft suicide note know probably clich leave one really care every day feel closer edge part want least final word everyone life dear insert name really say sorry not strong enough nobody fault honestly please not ever blame not want pretend anymore not want push not anything else want pain go away felt anymore everything pressing maybe weight put maybe not not really matter anymore heart ever ache anymore brain tear shred feeling okay piece eye lost glow smile forced not even feel human ask one small favor everyone life save tear really need cry instead smile think close eye remember good time not want cause anymore pain already lifetime anyone need hear one time love love much sorry sorry sorry like | suicide |
self harming posting subreddit try avoid stupid comment self harmed cutting admittedly not bad arm leg recent time even went neck issue boyfriend think stupid learnt behaviour explained way control pain feel time get annoyed guy think opinion | suicide |
even banana take look fuck made probably banana | non-suicide |
year suicide boothsif got reference great not sfw wish thing exist easy way end would not gotten bed past day use bathroom eat something lurking r not sure posting bad want end well suppose many not much live bad area helicopter overhead night thursday til monday illegal immigrant neighbor play mexican music loud possible friday night monday go back work constant police siren night sure similar situation not bad right many people know high school not go college even finish high school yet succeeded many way family homeowner stable well paying job others finish college degree also succeeding life hand decided go college wrack student loan debt finish college not able find stable job not work force year not lack trying type job get retail call center fast food none pay well last job undocumented immigrant working hired citizen needed u citizen certain type work not college education work needed citizen laid work money denied unemployment denied help food losing saving every day reading post r feel like not bad yet bad enough not want face tomorrow day day make feel worse read others going knowing go facing facing not want even try not want exist anymore given deadline not career not job career end year would obtain firearm end however may december seems far away seems easier get not face tomorrow sorry wall text honestly edited lot omitted thing not waste time | suicide |
bored not know mention bored filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
mother father forgive not want hurt anybody fact need go know people love care also know people suffer emotional problem not bear inflict pain anyone else confident everyone else amazing sibling grandma close friend move probably lead better life without mother father understand forgive action incredible parent course made share mistake always tried best could really want understand action not way due anything not love ever express not want feel inflict pain anyone anymore want sleep quietly forgotten need know forgive move continue happy amazing people | suicide |
really pissed gc groupchat like kid problem lot u opposite political view debate start easily mostly like girl super liberal boy conservative eventually agreed ban politics like single text stuff nothing much well problem girl still not always follow today started going said politics rule started going attacking u one basically called friend racist support trump got pretty offended totally uncalled agreed prior god sake politics say freedom speech crap say rule discussion chat break problem also said not not political arguement like thay friend not really friend whic stupid politics complicated different view not mean not friend friend different idea keep going tell u leave not want ti hear muted chat pissed | non-suicide |
finally finished noteit feel good finally see end sight day completely free happy | suicide |
alt girl make advice hey alt girl need help w good makeup idea product preferably cheaper not need like super casual school dresscode school started bold open bold makeup much fun would describe style mix soft girly aesthetic grunge comfort kind korean alternative fashion push outta comfort zone reference picture roast makeup skill | non-suicide |
absolutely idea put title going couple day think finally access fairly reliable method pretty much thing holding back | suicide |
everyone laughingmy existence joke people life people underestimate point actively try sabotage effort ever since little never felt like alive men take advantage see vulnerable even try coldest towards led multiple incidence abuse not seem escape matter life parent not get help professional not money coincidentally parent also one gaslight every single day abuse towards remember die laughing rest people laughed everyone laughing grave laughing pathetic person | suicide |
tiredive done lot thing pill jumping cliff ton try kill self always wrong hospitalized good year half started suicidal thought not talk like want work prepared kill attempted worse way time afraid hurt not want go pain already mentally nothing make happy anymore typing probably delete week feel like attention whore ever say nothing going dropped high school bullied work fast food restaurant literally panic attack going called fat mood called cow refuse tell bos make worse guess tired | suicide |
would great someone shot back head without knowing itit would perfect death | suicide |
accidently call pride flag f g flag straight gay person face got use saying f g flag slipped oops mean harm swear run away dean probs going hitting soon | non-suicide |
worst type heartbreak follow meme page start posting racist homophobic misogynistic etc shit start spamming ad thought bond guess not | non-suicide |
not know point posting suppose got nothing lose tried kill month back basically avoid burden society not anything right psych ward week got supposed better exception apathetic outlook life week ago door got stuck shut cat outside could gone garage get tired not logical opened window next door tried lift screen would not come forced bent frame process unusable mom said not mad told conscientious next time frustrated though seemed quick forgive acting rashly today told cat could not figure door use called even though could see sort humorous anecdote guess cat really dumb started going irritated acting thoughtlessly cost screen not know get one never accept consequence action not responsible adult told really tired not thinking clearly told sometimes think clearly asked load dishwasher went upstairs well course time think fuck kept imaging vivid image arm covered cut bleeding profusely think feel guilty came downstairs asked plan today could not answer trying not cry figured upset asked long pause told not know still upset screen told taken year learn mindfulness drove crazy see people go around make stupid decision without even thinking ranting bit said furious went back dad even would given opportunity better life could not tell meant last time lived day ago not feel well stayed appointment near house not feel like driving back would hour drive not ask went learned thing would burden either society said take lot practice mindful realize right choice every time get close throw away want victim something referred choosing live dad controlling abusive mentioned not stay school probably fail next time try not improved not know odd way motivating said use criticism realize going work hard change therapy since getting hospital thought working changing said irritated window not window asked could accept upset not answer whole time made sense fuck thought burden everyone probably tried kill whenever tried change whether holding job going school failed completely miserable could miserable not burden make people miserable burden would also make miserable could kill spare everyone misery not know writing get thought maybe another solution not thought thoughtless zombie burden not sure know hate life longer attached existence | suicide |
not want thisit hurt scared fall asleep need everything stop | suicide |
college gotten best high school severely depressed never anything game computer room would filled brim garbage festering even senior year best time life felt happy time probably not anything make happy kept telling college going tough not hard way meet people expand open mind people like minded man everyone not asshole j not think suicide rd week college think wanting leave close around dollar purchasing bus ticket oregon live life gotten point would rather work job rest life many year college fulfilling life anything could accomplish not single friend besides couple guy play basketball rec center guy sit beside stats class love waking tuesday thursday know someone talk minute least mind whack talk realize even plan never get done coupled thought mom always dying never get better live around hour home mom say coming see might take longer never get thought dying something bad happening drive not license hard anything unless walk not really problem love life non existent never talked girl dating sure talk lot guy girl everyday great conversation none hit not think ugly low self esteem always kill vibe one thing happened not bothered frat one active guy lied said disrespecting girl public would not happen since barely talk public sister boyfriend another frat talked president said everyone liked besides guy pretty much rule one gone like friend one sit room day final coming really not care since changing major may not even get next semester may actually gone looking back came friend back home nothing still smoking weed day nothing life least trying next semester going wv culinary school never stop caring future time come real brother doubt ever broken apart even barely see nowadays nursing major semester really hate criterion hopefully computer information system easier want something easy even get alright grade semester got great grade h not matter not live life without study everyday stressing whether not get high c pas class thought going uni like ya going ton people pc game want play league maybe even meet girl play game went club fair looking pc gaming club met video game club comprised bunch nerd suck nintendo dick socially awkward people alive want people play game also not total outcast social situation keep conversation going forever person try charismatic guy seem like typical nerd hate saying sound mean really true p play league ow play would like friend | suicide |
lol imagine got friend zoned still want talk supposed sad hapi | non-suicide |
ui change change back | non-suicide |